In search of happiness.

2007-04-25T09:06:00.001-07:00

Currently, its 12am.
Actually wanted to sleep but just cant get into it.
Damm bored.
Later 2.40 am got Chelsea VS Liverpool=)
Hopefully Liverpool will win altough i bet on Chelsea.
Confusing right? hahas i know.

So hows poly life you might ask?
Definately not better than secondary school.
THATS FOR SURE!
Well, however now i have to face the fact... I'm already in poly so will have to just go through it ...
3years won't be long i guess.

Now talking about whats happening...
I shall not mention about poly life..
It aint any interesting...
SO , have been going back to bowen area after school for the past few days.
Kinda change from bball to soccer. lols
Yupp, had been playing street soccer basically...

Yesterday was sean's birthday. Er nope its 2 days ago.
Went to eat steam boat.
Was nice lah, but ex.
hahas , many people went..
Like HanXiang Gibson Eugene Choonyeong Sean Jiarong Yijie Thomas Yaoan Dominic Matthew.
Alot right lols....

So ya thats about it . will post again.
Bye.

-hopefully. things would change for the better.
I miss those times in sencondary.
Miss my great friends there. =(
Hope to spent time with them soon.

2007-04-21T13:16:00.001-07:00

4am.
If i were to be at east coast park now.
Maybe soon i'll be able to see the sunrise.
=)

Poly life has started.
I think i have the mentallity to get the Diploma and get over with it soon.
Kinda hate going to school.

Been feeling down for the past few days.
Still being nostalgic.
Mood swings , emo-thoughts and mind set.
Sigh.

I miss this and that.
What can i do?

2007-04-17T09:25:00.001-07:00

School started.
Things aren't really having big changes.
At least my sleep hours are more humane now.
Unlike the owl.

Today was the second day of school.
Classmates? Well... don't know how to comment?
After school today, met up with Leonard and Jackson.
Had some pictures though. However really tired and sleepy now.
So shall not upload it.
I realise i haven't been posting pictures.
It had made my posts so dry, so shall try uploading pictures when i am free.
They made me wait so long man. As usual....
We had lunch at pizza had than.
Jackson and me ate baked rice while leonard ate pasta.
After which walked around heartland mall and soon we dispersed.

I went to kovan mrt to meet nigel and we went to Plaza Singapura.
Next met up with Andee.
AND HERE COMES THE SHOPPING SPREE!
Shopping for Adidas jacket , my climatCOOL one useless.
Don't keep me warm at all man!
Nigel also getting shoes.
BUT! end up, we all only bought clothes.
I bought a pants . At POA.(principle of accounts, lame )
-People of Asia .
Thats about it.

Currently extrememly tired.
Bag's super heavy !
Good Night.
Bye

2007-04-15T10:15:00.001-07:00

Today would be the start of school.
3pm till 8pm.
Sigh, somehow in a confused state.
School. Excited? Sad?
I don't know.
I might be getting a laptop tomorrow.
Sony Vaio.
That item has been in my wish list for a long long time.
and now i finnaly will be getting it.
Hopefully tomorrow or whenever dad's free to go .
Guess that about it .
Will post soon.
Bye

2007-04-08T09:27:00.001-07:00

Okok let me start with FRIDAY , the good friday..

SLept very late...
Hence.....
Woke up late...Suppose to meet Leonard at 11++ at serangoon mrt.
However due to my late night sleep, i woke up at 11 ++ and hurry up with washing up..
Manage to met him before 12 and we went to bugis to meet up with shuxian , tong sheng... and some other relatives of tong sheng =.=" , including his mum.
A bit crap la,.... go out with people's mother. I don't mean that his mum is crap.
LOls but serious, shu xian's fault. Bad organisation...

After which me and Leonard left first to go to Kovan for lunch.
They had bball training later so jackson was at kovan.. He came to meet us lor.
Leonard went home to change while i walk to plkcc with jackson.. Slacked awhile and went off after leonard's back. Waited for him to say bye hor... LOLS. good right.
Hurried home and change... Was in a bad mood but still i went out with Andee , Dalton , Nigel and Alvin...
Was fucking frusfrated as first cuz had to wait all the way to 3.15AM! to watch FREEDOM WRITERS =D
But well, it was sure a nice show.
I have to apologise to the 4 of them who had to see my face that day. Cuz bad mood than.. ya...
abit , ... nvm, just wanna say sorry here.

So we watch till 5plus.... slack around, till the first or second train and i went home while the rest had mac at ps... I was saving money so ya... Went home for breakfast.
When i reach home, it was about 7 , ate breakfast , bathe and slept.

SATURDAY!

So ya... manage to fall asleep by 9... GRRRRR!!!! lack of sleep
Eugene called and say he will come at 10. So he did...
SO again i Over slept ... woke up at 1.
Eugene was dunnoe doing what while i sleep.. really was tired.
But he sure was fooling around lah.. make me cant sleep.
Woke up at 1 , bathe , change and ate lunch at home.
Eugene also ate at my house..
Than we went to harbour front to meet up with Sean , Matthew , Yao An , Choon Yeong , Leon.
Following that , the 7 of us went to plaza sing....
AGAIN LAH!.... like i left plaza at 6 plus and back there again at 1...
=.="
We went to play pool. Oh ya. than we saw alot of people lar...
There was Jackson, Tong sheng, Ji Xiang, Joshua, Jin Kun, Kok Chen, Robin, Jennifer, some A1 ppl , Cedric , Jin wen... Ya alot right?
We (7 of us) played pool till 5 plus 6...
Yea, so all hungry but still we didnt went to eat... Matthew had to leave first
We than went to hunt for eugene's shoe... shop many shops and finally he decided on nike dunk.
Bought it from left foot....
Than at last we went back to plaza sing to eat dinner...
Jackson and Tong Sheng came also...
As usual we ate at food court... I eat the indonesia food =) AGAIN! but its nice
After dinner, eugene had to left first so he went off...
The few of us went to take NEL..
Leon had to stop first .
Follow by Choon Yeong and Sean.
Finnaly me tongsheng and jackson..
Went to play bball awhile at jackson's hse there.

Sweaty sweaty all over... ==.==" took the bus and went home lor..
Bathe and changed and NOT SLEEP!
Go out again-.- with hanxiang to watch soccer..
WOOOOTTT!!!!
Manu lost to ProtsM......
I purposely called choon yeong. the man , u fan.. hahas
At last by 6AM i manage to fall asleep.
GUESS WHAT!!!

I woke up at 5-6pm today...
Actually wanted to meet jackson to play bball today de.... but woke up too late.
So cant...
Was shock la...
When i wake up i called him ask what time wanna play then he ask me , " you know what time now not ?" than i like say... 2 3 la.. ??
LOL than i check the phone.
FINNALY! i noticed.. so late le. hahas
SO didn't play bball with him after all... Met up with Andee and Alvin..
Ate at prata shop =.= again/..

Next we went to play bball... FINNALLY AFTER ALL!!!!
I am back home now again.. Posting.
hahas going to go bathe soon.
ANd i gonna do something to my blog soon. New skins and more pics asap =)
Gonna start making Full use of my camera.. will bring it out every where i go? hehe

School going to start soon.
I find that its a test.
Of Discipline...
Sigh.
I will miss these times.
I miss many people's presences which they may not think there exsistance would meant anything to me...
As i am typing that sentence , their faces really flash through my mind...

BBALL!!!
I WILL START WORKING SUPPER DUPER HARD FOR YOU!

2007-04-04T10:39:00.001-07:00

Hmmm, today is the 5th.
Kinda been thinking about it.
So many months of holidays and school will be reopening for me officialy on the 16th.
That would be a oreintation on 11 and 12 i think.

Abit worried that would i still be as free as i am now when school reopen to meet up with friends.
Playing bball is another thing. Still i must find time for studies and family.
Sigh, i'm afraid that i would start to lose contact with ppl....

Come to think about it there are some peeps which i have not seen for long.
Sigh i really miss them =(

So today, er nope Yesterday...
Stayed home whole day. Played FF8 .. old game =.= lols
Ate icecream... Only went out for 15mins.. Rush at 0630 to buy soccer...
Luckly manage to catch up =)
Hope that it would be a away home =) odd 1-22 . LOL
ALot lah.
SO if valencia leads the 1st half and chealsea wins it all. I WILL BE STRIKING IT RICH!
ehehhehehe

hahas okok. so now waiting for 1 more hour...Before match starts

So will be posting soon. =)

-I miss you people whos presence meant alot to me , though it might not meant much to you.

2007-03-30T10:16:00.001-07:00

Well...i'm kinda sick of my blog skin man...
Gonna sure for a new one soon =D
Yeap.

Ok, so abit about thursday
Went to town to fix my ipod..
It hanged for no reason..
After that went to walk around at orchard road with jackson.
Went to 2001 to look for clothes...
About 7plus than jackson went home... I went to sn2.
Saw eugene and timothy... shoot shoot abit than slack around and went home.
Took a bathe and met joey junliang and zhihong at atar (short form of pratashop) ( 1am?)
Ate mee goreng., than junlaing cannot finish his ULTRA spicy nasi goreng.
Hey peeps the watever goreng there really all damm spicy la.
=.="
After which talk cock talk cock around than went to my house there the spc petrol station and talk.
ZhiHong really can dance sia.. Lols .. than ya we 4 over there talk about every thing..
From dance to private parts =.=" to basketball =)
After whcih damm bored so we look at time... 5plus am le went home use toilet take money than go serangoon central eat bean curd.
Its nice la! and not say very ex.
At last... all of us shag out le so went home sleep.. However we still insisted to walk home and save money lols. YEa!

Friday... woke up at 1+, =.= dammm sleep only 4hrs.
Cuz gibson eugene sean matthew thomas and choonyeong came to my house.
Slack around and we went for lunch...
After that thomas and matthew had to go so the rest came back to my house.
Slack around again and they went home at about 5pm...
AT LAST!!!! I can get a proper sleep.
Went upstairs and slept till around 9++ than cant sleep any further so awake tilll now...
lols

Just now when wake up hor... really damm missing lah.
Weird...
Ok so thats about it lor Lols....
Post another time.
bye guess .+D

-i miss school

2007-03-27T06:53:00.001-07:00

Aiya, today ar... watch movie again.! Lols
The Haunted School. STUPID ENDING!
You should have seen the way we watched the movie lols.
Catched it with HanXiang,Jackson,JiXiang,me (the way we sit ) lols...

Okok after which i went to take passport size photo for enrolment .
=.=" nerd pic. lols =D good impression okay!
Oh man... i'm damm tired. Slept at 0830 today and woke up at 0130.
All andee's fault. Don't let me sleep . lols
yesterday, andee and alvin stayed over.
Ya thats about all.
Post another time =D

Bye

2007-03-24T10:19:00.001-07:00

Actually i had alot to blog about but somehow don't really know how to put them all in words.
Let me start with my day. As in 24th March.

Hmm, so i went out the whole day with lots of people...
Different groups and combination.
Watched storm the yard twice . But its kinda worth it i guess.
Well don't really feel like talking much about the day...
Happy birthday HanXiang and Jia Rong (today). Pity her lost her hp .

Now the second thing...
Basketball.
Kinda lost interest and passion for it.
No longer feel the same where i had for it. A totally different attitude.
I really dunnoe what made it this way. Perhaps because of the stress?
Stress to improve... I just can't enjoy bball as before.
And hence, i start avoiding it ... Avoiding and avoiding... Till ytd nite i finally came up with a decesion. Since i don't really like it for now... I shall just give myself a break. Maybe a long break . maybe forever. rather than playing but without the proper attitude and heart...
Which is rather isulting. So ya... sigh.

But of cause i guess i will try to mantain my fitness by joining some other sports...
I'm considering track and feild... So whose interested to train with me =D

Thats about it.
Bye

2007-03-20T22:07:00.001-07:00

Omg....
I only slept for 3 hours.. really deprived of sleep.
Ytd went out at about 7plus pm... to serangoon to meet Andee and Alvin..
Next met Nigel Yap at plaza sing.. and we slacked around joking... laming..
Till dal came. Went to The cathy to watch STORM THE YARD!
Its nice okay! lols

Yupp=D really quite a nice show.
After which went took cab back to prata shop , ate supper .
Fooled alvin=.= " lols...
Played poker ... joke around and its 5am?!?!?!

Me and Andee take turns use the phone lor... lol =.=
Than went to sleep ya...thats about it... and now i am awake.
Slept from 7-10++
S\ianz!

Later have to go to the bank and do all the enrolment stuffs....
Kk post another time bYe!

2007-03-19T10:56:00.001-07:00

Today was kinda normal?

Oh yea... enrolment pakage came at last.
So many things to do...
well... i will work hard in poly and enter a local u. =D
YEA !

Don't really feel like posting so guess i post another time.
Kinda missing school again . lols

FINISHED! watching Hana Kimi (hua yang shao nian shao nv )
Now gonna continue with the unfinish prison break! wahahhas

thats all. seeya.

2007-03-16T03:03:00.000-07:00

hmm, here i am.
Back from han xiang's chalet..=D

Left the chalet today at 12plus...
Than went to tm ... met matthew at bedok.
Went to ps to meet up with sean and eugene...
And we were all wearing red excpet matthew.
Soon dominic came... yep slack around till about 5+..
Than matthew had to go back to his cousin's hse.
Dominic followed him and the other 2 came my hse =.=
Once reach home i took out my contact lens which was in my eyes for dunnoe how many hours... More than 24 thats for sure. LOL! i'm going blind soon=X
hahas.

The 2 of them ar... well i dun really know what they did cuz i fell asleep soon and they just had fun themsevles with the com Lol. =.="
thats all for today?

Hmm eden's going into army tomorrow...
Wish him all the best -D

2007-03-13T10:15:00.001-07:00

I'm down with flu and i'm not feeling well...

2007-03-12T03:44:00.000-07:00

Yeah...=D
At last some pics in my blog...

Firstly, my new crumpler bag. wahahhahahas
At last i bought it =D
Yepp isn't it nice? hehe

OK this is my cny new shoe.. lols. Its been so long since i upload pics thus abit slow la uh....
hahas

Slippers .... the old white ripcurl slipper has been replaced... +D

Yep=D
New Camera 7.2 mega pix=D
Now i can go out and take pics... lols
More pics coming on =D
hahas using my phone to take a pic of a camera =.=" so lame lols

This is what i always wanted...
IPOD!!! yeah at last i get it.

this was my ankle ... that day lah.. uh spraid lor . lols

okok abit about today...
Sis going to get married le...
hmm should be happy for her bah...
But... like not that happy also. Maybe i might miss her.. LOl
So gotta get ready for her lo...
Today the parents met up and discuss..
Hias the traditional sttuffs so boring =.= "
listen there so sianz hahas
than today nothing much la... ya lazy post so... hehe
thats about it.. =D
bye ppl tag more =D

2007-03-09T10:32:00.001-08:00

Okay i'm back from bbq now.

Guess i'll have to get back to serious training... have been slacking for way too long! grrrr
Next today's bbq was... hmmm nvm no comments.
Too last minute maybe? but we all had fun i guess .

Oh well today wasn't really that eventfull however...
Woke up went to prata shop to meet eugene , matthew , sean , louis=.= , jack , leon ..
I didnt miss out anyone right? ... Than they came my house create havoc. lols
No lah just play play lor slack...
The room damn stink lah. Due to their pespirations... =.="
omg.. !
After that i went to buy bbq food than go bbq lor.. Nothing much lah today...

I'll post another time then readers...
To those enjoying their holidays now.... HOPE YOU PEOPLE WILL HAVE FUN+D
seeya. nights

omg another after midnight post... wth is my body clock adjusting to? the owl? lols

2007-03-06T10:37:00.001-08:00

Oh well, what the hell is this world changing into?
My dog ain't barking at the stray cats...But me=.-
The cats don't mind sharing their food with rats..
hahas thats what i saw moment ago..
Just came back from eugene YEO house... lols. I know too many eugene(s) .
And good thing.. all so friendly lols... =.0
Yepp today ar got postings...
Woke up at 7 than after that went to sp...
Next went home lor...
Yup and so I went into NYP.
Business Management.
Well was unexpected though. Yuppp.
But okay with it. As in okay lor... no hard feeling man =D , lols 0.0
At least its near to my house and ya Joey is in too.. so maybe Dad can fetch us there?
Impossible=.= he sure wanna sleep lols...
Ya than after sp went home , slacked.. slept...
From noon there till 2130...
Went i woke up was like... so lost.. Slept too much than got this kinda weitd feeling..
Don't really like it though. so . bitter LOL!
So after that met eugene , to eat my lunch cum dinner cum supper.
Next went to his home ... Jovyn sleeping liao. lols
Notcied that went jovyn sleeping hor... really can disturb 1... He wont wake up! lols
wahahhahas i know jovyn's weakness...
Yep.. thats about it.
_Post tml =D

hehe bye readers.
Gdnight.

2007-03-05T09:44:00.001-08:00

Posting results would be out today.
Kinda excited and afriad...
Excited because well school's reopening and i've have enough of slacking.
Afraid because, i might not go into the course i want to.
I might not meet the classmates i like..
And most of all, afriad that i have too much time constrains to enjoy myself.
(with friends and basketball stuffs)

Well certainly i hope all worries won't be worries =)
As in , everything would be alright and smooth sailing in the coming future of mine.

Now, talking about today.
It was simply boring...
Actually thought will go out with leonard... But ar, dunnoe why he fell sick.
Nvm another day than.
Gotta take my $$$ money back from Eugene. lols. I some sort of force him to keep my money=.=?
lols
and ya... i didn't forget that i owe sean milk. Fresh Milk from NTUC? hehe
Didn't went out today although i wanted to lah...
No basketball too! My ankle is still hurting. I tried jumping just now and... OMG it hurts.
Gotta recover soon...
There would be 2 (3on3s) ahead... If we are going to register..
And ya ... also go the adidas carnival...
SO many basketball stuffs coming on.. so PLEASE mr ankle.. get well soon . will you?

Eden's leaving us next week for army. Hmm , shall come up with something , something great to bid him farewell...?
=.= like as if army = death LOLx
People often says if you remain as friends even after army.. Its most likely that you would be firends throughout your lives.. So people, stay in contact even after army. =D

Kinda missing school days again .
Always missing it.
Remember my life in school , filled with so many people. But always are a few who accompanied me around =D thanks all
maybe if i manage to save enough i would open a hugh BBQ end of this year . Inviting all my bowen friends? Hope so bah..
Let me strike lottery ? hehe
Yupp, also hope than can see my friends of bowen who graduated with me in my future poly...
Gonna know soon?!?!
IF not , i really think will lose contact...
nvm, lets see what happens? all i can say is i will try my best but i hope it ain't 1 sided .

Just now found out a new game in msn quite fun. First time playing..
7 hand poker.. its fun.
I found it with hx... than he kanna dc le.
Thus we cannot play anymore , so here i am... posting once again

Calling out peeps to tag me !!! tag me!!!
hehe

2007-03-04T07:19:00.001-08:00

Sorry for being late today.
lols.
Ate breakfast with cailing and bobby.
Yupp than realise sunday's mac really damm CROWDED ...

after which never really go anywhere else...
which means stright home..

Reached home... slept awhile.
Woke up help out abit to prepare dinner.
Cuz today yuan xiao jie... (15th day of cny , last too )...
so ya all gathered to eat.. still as usual missing some ppeeps around though..

Nothing much happened today i guess.
Thats all...
-hoped that my ankle would recover soon.
=D

bye all.
Good night

2007-03-03T10:55:00.001-08:00

I guess thats about it, i moved on.
Thats what i should admit now.

2007-02-27T11:19:00.001-08:00

sigh..
I've been trying to do up my blog for the past few hours...
However i just cant upload the things i wanted to.
This few days didn't really had the mood to blog thus i didn't.
As simple as that.
Just don't know why i am so affect by my mood and the worse thing is that i can't control it.
Kinda not feeling well... not sick but... nah , i don't know.
Haven't been playing bball for quite sometimes though...
Todays bball was alright. however i have to admit...
I am rusty now.
So hope that i could get back my bball feeling.
Live a happy life =D

These few days catched two movies....
Epic movies was lame real lame... =.=
The show Pursuit of HappYness was alright.
Nothing much really happeneed.

Oh ya i bought a ripcurl shoe...
ripcurl shoe? yup seldom heard of it though . lolx
And finally i bought my crumpler bag.=D
next would be an ipod ?
and ya the old slippers of mine was dispposed... i've bought a new one too.
Perhaps thats the only good thing of chinese new year?
More new stuffs and old stuffs go.
However talking about sending the old stuffs away. It would make me nostalgic all over again.

A couple of hours ago, i was sitting at bowen's front gate bus stop...
At that point of time... all the old memories flash back.
Kinda sad and emotinal now.
I really miss my school life.
And now leaving school meant lots of changes for me.
The new stage of live awaits me.
Yet, i can't leave the past behind.
I stuck in between my future and my past.
I want to procced but i can't bear to.

Really hope that my wishes would come true.

thats all for this post i guess.
seeya people.

2007-02-12T23:45:00.000-08:00

Hey people...
Ever tried laying down on the top level of a multi-storey carpark?
Looking at the sky without any buildings blocking your view before?
.... The stars really filled the sky...
So don't ever complain theres no star in Singapore. Lol
btw, this carpark i was at is the carpark opposite hougang point..
Was there moments ago with Andee , Dalton and Dominic(lim).
Yep, we talk and catch up abit...

Today morning ,
Breakfast at prata shop (again) with Gibson, Leon ,Thomas , Matthew , ermm...
oh also got dominic (teo)....AFter which they went to school ...
Next went to srjc....hahas in the end.. a wasted effort.
SO shall not talk about it..
Maybe i shall go crashing some schools soon! =D
After sr... andee came my house and we both decide on the course we are going to go too.
Our scores are merely a point in different! lol
MIND YOU!!! Last time psle also 1 point... hahas
In the end we came up with out courses to take... yep both the same.
Hope we can enter same course same class! =D
OR else like years ago... seperated to different secondary school.

than me and andee also go to grassroots to play pool and go see deyi T&F...
Met up with dominic (lim dong jie ) then...lols i know many dominics...
Went to castle green awhile to wait for dalton...
Yep.. and we disturb the pedestrains... hahas full of crap.
ANd the poor student... female student hahas
Alas met dalton on bus... went to eat at hg pt mac and go the carpark...

Okok now.. a little about my O level results here.
English c5
Chinese b3
Maths A2
A.Maths B3
Dnt C6
Scince C5
Com.Humans B3

i was most satisfied with humans... study only merger and 2 chap of geo...
ALso can b3!! cool..
okok la overall for O level not bad le... didnt study also so good hehe =.=
MAthSSS are dissapoting too..
Oh ya science was shyt lousy... KILL ME!! gr...
ANYWAY I PASS DNT!!!!
only do the paper for 1/2 hr and slept 2 hr
STEADY BO?
folio and artefect so anyhow..
but ya dun follow my example k? hehe...
I'm a bad example.

Thats about today post...
really hope people could tag man!!!

anyway my ankle's old injuiry is giving me trouble.. maybe no bball for a few days....

and... swissotel rocks.. the one beside city halL!

2007-02-04T21:24:00.000-08:00

My apologies to my blog's readers for not updating my blog for so many days....
(anyway, are there readers? i hoped so... but there aint many tagging)

Kinda busy the week before....With my basketball stuffs and keeping physically fit!
lolx.
There was the visit to the gym...
Walkathon? ( blame the gov***** for forcing us to use adult fair )
and many many more... hehe....

So today , went to my cousin house to pray...
My grand dad's death aniversery.
well, i ask and said to him in prayers for good result.
Am i foolish? I don't know. Kinda feeling helpless about it anymore.
I regreted.
For i did not give my best.

After lunch at cousin's house, went home change...
Than when to kovan to meet jackson.
Had lunch and soon came leonard and jason.

OMG!
They ar... really nonsense.. lolx
We visited the converse ware house sales...
all 3 of them bought at least an item...
However... i did not buy any. ITs really dammit messy and crowded..
I dislike such shopping atmoshpere..
After whcih had dinner together...
Kinda fun day with the 3 of them keeping me company...
hahas... really paiseh tough.,..
opps.. i shall not mention them hehe.
Keep you all in suspense.. kk i think i will update another time than.
LOL!
byebye

2007-01-24T01:55:00.001-08:00

It certainly has been some time since i posted.
SO today. i shall post ALOT!
Since its 0124am, and i am not going to know whats installed in the my future ( as no plans now ) i'm going to back track.
So, let me start off with yesterday.

Yesterday, wentto sbc to watch bwss vs canbera sec.
nothing much happen.
that all. lols

2days ago .it marked the start of something. =)
hehe.
and i went VROOM VROOM with BObby ( not the driver ) lols its Minkai driving and Kenneth with me at the back.
MinKai is a good boyfriend k? lols.

3days ago, sunday.
Went breakfast with grandparents (motherside) and mr and mrs bear. ( dunnoe why from young my parents call this uncle xiao xiong ) so i called him xiao xiong jiu jiu. lolx
Next went to bball ... and ya. got ppl find fault blah blah blah.
dun wanna talk about that. oh ya that day after the trouble... met ida lim at long johns.
hahas. she was dating . hahs with her husband =x lame

Last saturday. I forgot what i did man! i Think i stayed home whole day. watching prison break.

Friday, had suki sushi with
-Gibson
-Eugene
-Sean
-ChoonYeong
-Leon
-Sean
-Thomas
-martin? lols he didnt eat.

thursday. went to have lunch with Mr and Mrs tawei , celina hanxiang and abit of bijuan there?
lols

kk so here are some pics i took .... some maybe quite long ago though. hehe
just uploaded for fun =x lols

So here it is Gibson Eugene and Sean.
WOnder whatws sean doing?
Styling his hair , picking his teeth . lols omg.
Oh ya not forget thing someting.
You can make yourselves comfortable at suki sushi yea?
Taking off shoes? all started by gibson.... STINK MAN!

Hahas so cosy. Gib and sean squeezing eugene.
Eugene:"GIVE ME SPACE!!! "lols
Gibson and Sean " no way, squeeezzeeee " lols

WAH! Illegal gathering ar?
6 of them fighting cockrach.
omg. so unhygiene..... eeeeek!!!!

what are they loooking at man?
hahas i forgot too.
SHould be some game ba

Hey at last i can some plates.
aren;t they tall?
They really eat alot sia.
At the end of it, all were saying : " no more jap food for yr 2007 "
thats how sick we can , having to eat the same food for4hrs....

Gibson's evil face.
CHoonyeong so funny, dunnoe what he doing.
Eugene so Xtra in this pic! lols.
=x joking man hehe

ooo so at last 1 pic of food!
Oyster. Not bad leh!
hehe they dunnoe eat how many of it.

Eugene and Leon.
Isolated. lols

Plates. plates Plates =D

THIS PIC IS DAMMIT FUNNY!
Gibson laugh till cry. lols
cuz got this foreigners sitting behind keep laughing.
than leon also follow.. than all follow. even other customers.
THan super funny.
omg i going to start laughing agian LOL!!!! super FUNNY LAH!

Leon... all alone .
SO lonely. he mr lonely. he has nobody?
lols...

Eugene. covering his nose?
THe food too stink? i dunnoe??
lols

This is a pic i drew out of boredness.
I got the inspiration from lester aka rolesta.
Lester Lim you know? Hes a good artist man! not like this lester =x lols

OMG! THis cost s$4.... so ex and small.
Me and hanxiang kanna conned by tawei. Bluff us go eat! shyt lah hahas

This is tawei's food ...dunnoe nice anot. lols
but ... hahas shouldnt be.

this is mine. baked rice hor.
But ta wei keep saying got cockrach in the kitchen running aroung the bamboo bowl.
WAH sick man. no appetite

Thousand layer tofu... ermmm.. lols
no comments.

The bowl nice right? a 8figure.
AS wat hanxiang said... this one ar... hias
only the soup nice... the rest... lols omg.
I remembered he left alot of it!

SO that day thanks to tawei!!! sigh hahas.
hehehehe

okok the drink still okay.

DRINKS!~

Somehow i saw a few funny pics of leonard. so just post lor.
lols leonard dun kill me hor! hehe or bite me =x (you know what i meant ) lols
So wats leonard doing? you figure it out yourself. lols

This pic dammit funny lah his face.
Anyway kenneth says he look like caixin.
So whcih part is it? help me figure it out. lols

Look at the left back grond. Thats oasis garden.
Now reduced to... a pile of sand? sigh...
okok so this is the yellow man not wicker man.
At bartley sec there.
The bike damm cute seh. lols .

Okok lastly another pic of gibson and eugene.
hahas gib's funny face.
and eugene smilling so widely. lols
CHEESE!

kk gonna post another time.
GOod night all.

DO enjoy reading my blog and leave a tag! ...
SEeya !

-waiting for prison break seasons to come.its a super nice show man!
Vroom vRoom
=D

bball still rocks ! =)

2007-01-24T01:55:00.000-08:00

2007-01-17T22:02:00.000-08:00

Guess what.
I'm addicted to prison break!
Its a super nice show.
About a innocent man whom was sentanced to prison and his brother trying to save him.
Check out the tattoos they are cool!
Make me feel like tattoo-ing too.
hahaas.
In all its a nice show. watch it!

Other than that. In my basketball life, been slacking too much.
Will get back soon! hopefully next week!
=) serious training man! no slacking!

Congats to bobby! Passed his driving!

Went back to school today and played bball ...
Nothing much.
Kinda normal day i had.
i'm broke man =(

tomorrow . friday and saturday.... all programmes need money.! grrrr

2007-01-15T04:03:00.000-08:00

4am, but still i'm awake.
For the past few hours, have been busying doing up this computer.
Cuz my uncle upgraded his com and gave me this old one of his.
However its not as old. and since, my old desktop kinda cock up.
I manage to transfer all usable hard ware over to this com.
Formatting the harddrive and installing xp was kinda dragggy.
The activation for xp met up with some problens.
Guess what? Mircosoft services 24hrs.
SO thanks to the operator.... my com is all done up.
hehehe.
My house can really become lan cetre le.
lols

NOw, feeling very nostalgic....
Maybe because of the songs i'm listening too.
I'm sad now. sigh

2007-01-13T03:01:00.000-08:00

woah!
17hours of sleep ytd.
so shiok.! lols

I realise i have been going back school for the whole of last week.
hehe, simply love school life man.
But well , i really have to learn to let go.

Yesterday, i went to cca open house to help out bb.
Kinda soak in the rain whole day. at the end of the day after i reach home, noticed my leg all wrinkled . cuz my shoe was wet the whole day. wth.
really sick if see it. white wrinkled legs. as in the bottom lah.

After open hse, went out to eat with Leonard and Clement.
First we had prata at prata shop of cuz. where else? lols
after which, slack and void neck and talk crap.
hanging out with them was fun.
Especially with leonard , full of craps.
With his pencial box. and Clement's ringtones. hahas
Anyway actually was shuxian's idea to have dinner together after open hse.
But end up she dunnoe disappear where. wah =(
hahas
Nvm she miss out the fun we had. =x

Today went to potong pasir with eugene.
lols. nothing much lah.
hehe
Next went to kovan meet up with yeeling than pris-lpy.
hahas
While waiting for the lpy me and eugene played bball at plkcc.
Its the slack slack kind lah of cuz. lols.
OMG this week wasn't a good week for me.
Didn't really work out or played bball properly.
As in due to rain or whatever reasons.
Or else is no proper attire. lol
lastly had deserts and "lunch aka teabreak "than go back court

Okok chinese new year coming soon, yea gonna buy new clothes and shoes and stuffs ...
So much to but.
I miss kbox! lols
fun

sad to say.
or happy ?
that i heard O level results would be on the 5-10feb.
not sure if its true . but i hope the best for everyone.
sigh. i'm worried.
really i am.
regrets.....
sigh

2007-01-11T08:44:00.000-08:00

Its still raining man.

When would it stop....

Well today wasn't very special although it supposed to be. lols

The class gathering was a complete failure. =(

mostly my fault lols..

I'm really too tired to post. shall post up another time.

seeya guys.
byebye

thinking of some things.
some people.
some occasions.

2007-01-09T23:18:00.000-08:00

I am starting to hate someone.!

To make the others less worrying, i would make the range of people smaller.

He is not related to bowen secondary.

He is not in Kx.

thats all.

2007-01-07T00:24:00.000-08:00

I simply love basketball!

=)

2007-01-06T03:00:00.000-08:00

Yea!
Since 26nov, the end of O levels , i have never step into Bowen Secondary School till today.
Just feels great to be in school.
Guess what i shaved my head "botak" just to enter school.
That shows how much i miss school , my friends , my teachers !
Everything and everyone.

Well, met many people in school.
I shall name some
-Track and Feild team and Miss Koh.
NOT FORGETTING MR SOH CAI XIN!!! hahas or else later he say i never mention him again.
hehehe Don't angry k?
-Gibson ( long pants ) and gang. The great poser Eugene ( long pants ). lols copy my msn nick , personal nick. totally same.
lols.
-Boys Brigade Show Case peepss+)
-Leonard , owe him christmas present that one lor. the bone. lols The only person i buy present.
-Kok Chen , Desmond(s)
-Celina , Bi juan wheres XinJun., must be someone brought her away earlier. the one who came to school without telling me . the one sir name Koh. LOL
-hey jovyn i met you too! lols Long Pants jovyn
aiya really too much to name it all =). sorry if i forgot
Wah, so many longs pants. omg....
Time FLIESSSSSSSSSSSSS
Its the fastest moving object i guess. cause its irreversible

Mr Dave Ng was the most generous though. Treated me drink. LOL
hmmm, he a good teacher. really.
Played basketball in school for awhile.
The ring sure is short.
After which bored of playing in school so went to buangkok, jackson house there play.
Yao An have to leave first so left we two.
So we play play play all the way till dunnoe what time.
Than left for dinner and went home.
Sigh stomach upset this few days. i think its the gastric problems again.

Basketball area hasn't been good for me this few days.
When serious also cannot find the form
OMG!!!
I wanna improve.
Have to jump higher now.
Hang longer .
Be faster and etc etc.
A long way to go for me.
YOU CAN DO IT LESTER!!!!
wahahahhahas
seriously, i wanna train and improve.
Oneday , yes oneday i hope , i'll be unstopable.
Will that day come?
I dunnoe but i'll try.
If i don't i'll sure to regret.

After all , went home did work out.
Yea, i'm gonna keep training.!
But i'm afriad i would not be disciplined.
Sigh, worries all have to come.
awhile ago, came back from prata shop.
hahahs i can be prata boy le lah! lols
Everytime go eat prata!

okok i shall go sleep now.
Tml gonna bball again! =)

2days to 8th-risbee bday
4days to 10th- joey bday

2007-01-04T03:18:00.000-08:00

School started for them.
Left at home alone to rot.
=((
Whos gonna accompany me for basketball?
Movies?
Prata?
HangOut?
and all etc etc................

I woke up 6am just to see people going to school.
Nostalgic.....

sigh.

Why only do we treasure whats gone?
Inevitable regrets ....

=(

I'm unhappy

2007-01-02T02:33:00.000-08:00

Midnight has past.
We are now in the second day of 2007.
Tomorrow would mark the begining of many others education year.
I have many things to say. so do endure and read patiently.
Forgive my language mistakes that i had made or about to make .

Reflection of year 2006.
Last year was a really different year for me i should say.
For those who know me long enough, you should know i have been living in at
oasis garden.
For the past 15 years of my life.
So last year, it was different.
Staying with my grandmother.
People may think whats the big fuss i am making about here.
But bear with me people, i never ever moved house before and after moving.
I realised it wasnt as fun as i though to be.
I missed the old oasis garden.
However its gone now, gone forever. sigh
Somehow i have to mention some names today. Some great friends i have ever known in oasis garden.
They are:
Andee
Benjamin
Eden
Nigel
Justin
Diana
YiShan
Weiliang
JiaPing.
Kane
Krystal
Yong Han
Jia Hong
Jia Cheng
and many many more. Forgive me if i forgot your name.
HEY PEOPLE WITHOUT OASIS GARDEN, MAYBE I WILL NEVER LOVE BASKETBALL.
Have you ever play with a metal chain net? hahas
I did k? Furthermore , that court was special.
Comfortable that i could sleep there and andee always forgets to wake me up.
Last year in school, i hang around mostly with Tawei.
Really wanna thank him alot.
He always is there for me. Yea =)

Basketball life was great in school.
Well maybe because, i get to play with my friends basketball without the pressure to win .
Understand?
hehehehe =)

basketball at SN2.
hey guys, playing there was tough compared to other places.
At first it was relax playing.
But to defeat the old birds, the difficult part comes in and, well it make me kinda stress out maybe?.
I prefer a stress-less basketball i guess.
However i will never forget the great time i had at eugene's house.
SUki Sushi. I am looking for to it again.
The 3on3s. thanks junhao and timothy.
My birthday celebration. THanks everyone.

New year didn't start right as i hope it would be.
However, its alright!
I know i would have a positive mind set to lead a happy 2007.
With ONLY basketball , friends and education in my mind.
NO MORE NO LESS.

SO HERES MY NEW YEAR RESOLUTION
-get myself a good education
-known as a pro basketballer. ( this i will have to train harder. )
-make time , proper time management for my FRIENDS I loved.
-Reorganise the KX revolution .
-try to be POSTIVE.
-get a job

thats all for now i guess. lolx

SO abit about ytd.
Didnt really had a great time at count down.
Ya i watched death note 2.
hmm, walked back from hougang mrt station to home.
Spend valuable time alone.

kk guys tag me k?

I;ve yet to receive any happy new year tags.
Kinda dissapointed.
=(
but nevermind.
hehe =)

kk gtg bye

2006-12-30T02:22:00.000-08:00

Not everyone is the one who could cheer you up.
In every of our minds , there always a few or a bunch of peope whom you know they would have the capabilty to make you happy.
However you always would hope that they would take initiative which often leads to dissapointments.
sigh.

2more days left.
to be exact , a day and 22hrs plus plus.

I miss bowen.

2006-12-23T02:19:00.000-08:00

23rd December 2006
o157A.M.
Saturday

We have to face the fact where time waits for no one.
In a blink of an eye, year 2006 have come to an end soon.
It just a matter of 6days and with a mere pathetic couple of hours.
Is it too early for me to make a summary of this year?
Ya it is, so perhaps i shall summarise year 2006 on 31dec.

Let me start of with 20december.
-Jackson's birthday.
I can't really remember very detailed though.
So on that day, yao an , gibson , zhengli , jackson and me met up and went to PS to find hanxiang.
As he was having his lunch break, the few of us decided to settle in at mos burger...
After most of us had finish our food , i lied by saying that i'm going to the toilet.
Instead, yao an and I went to bread talk to buy a cake.
Wah the cake really expensive. =( lol
but nvm
We lit the cake out mos burger and brought it in.
Every one was looking so damm paiseh.
At 1st we were thinking if we were to sing or not to sing the birthday song.
However, in the end we sang . despite our face . lol
Eat the cake untill very sick. the chocalate really very think and... erpp in all , sick.!
lol
after which, gibson had to go but the rest were keen on catching a movie.
So sorry that we have to ps gibson.
Gibson: my apologies to you. sorry
We went to watch Night at the Muesum.
It was quite a good show. Well guess what it was my first time watching a sneak preview.
Laugh all you want man ^-^
hehehe in the past i thought sneak preview only allows you to watch abit of the movie but well, it don't work that way.
SO people, don't be silly like i was, sneak preview is watching earlier at a higher cost. LOL
ps: earlier by a day? LOLx impatience brats hahas
After which went back.
I remember that night i had mood swings and i forgot why?
Sigh i'm always having mood swings . why is that so?
I know why. but , i shalln't say.

21dec
-Sn2 chalet.
Did't really do much on this very day.
Except that i know about the lobang thing.
which i will post about it another time.
Hmm, the prise is a bag and 2 bottles? all adidas. thats all. lolx
At night, went to Sn2 bbq.
Didn't stayed over as i didn't feel like it. sorry.

22dec
-yesterday.
Played basketball .
I realised i can't play well these few days.
Leonard says it might be due to lack of sleep, i hope so too.
So jackson took a pic randomly.
Look below.
wonder what are we doing?
oh ya i had a hair cut.
short and neat. Now i have to get rid of the colour.

After bball i went home rest a while.
Made some self reflections.
Hmm, i guess many of things are of my control.
It just lies in me.
If i have the discipline and proper time management.

Okok guys i'm going to sleep now.

To all secondary school students,

School's about to start, sorry to say , but you guys should start packing up your holiday mood.
And back to school to STUDY.
All the best for everyone =)
But of cuz!
Do enjoy the last few days of your holiday.

When school reopens, i know you people would be more busy but,
we will still keep in contact right?
I really hoped so.

omg, i feel like i have been drifting apart with some people.

gonna catch them back soon.
=(

Happy birthday jovyn

If i didn't voice out, it doesn't mean i forget about you.
Perhaps there might be other reasons, think about it.

2006-12-19T16:06:00.000-08:00

Heres my new blogskin.

Well, when will it stop raining?
I hope it will be real soon.

Certainly gonna need a haircut soon.
Maybe tomorrow?

Well, i'm broke. whos gonna sponsor me with CASH?
ps: A credit card will also do.

hehehe

2006-12-17T03:18:00.000-08:00

First....happy birthday zhengli.

These few days, i didn't really get enough sleep man.
Really lack of sleep.
I cant sleep untill after 3am?
And wake up before12pm?
omg.

anyway i think the most important i should think of now is my future.
so yea... i planed to train hard from now on ....
Nat, you're right.
I have to come up with proper time management .

Basketball
=) its the last word i would end with.

2006-12-12T00:33:00.000-08:00

13dec.
Happy Birthday to me.
Happy birthday to me.
Happy birthday to myself.
Happy birthday to me.

GRANDMA"S BACK TOO!!!!!!!
how cool would that be?
YEA!

well now ar...
abit dissapointed though, cuz..... nvm. i should be happy.
=))

2006-12-11T00:10:00.000-08:00

I realised it has really been quite a while since i posted.
Kinda getting lazy to post.
All perhaps i'm too busy? NO! hahas
Its the lazy cells in me!

Okay so this is all about it.
My life currently.
Its really in a mess , disorganised everything aren't that normal.
Guess what? I even can't remember the day , so don't even have to talk about the date.
I know nuts about them.
Its like .... no life man, just living each day for the sake of it?
LOL. I'm not too sure too.
There aren't meals prepare at home as grandma's is in hospital and cooking are reduncdant.
No one goes to the market too. SO, i'm feeding on prata and instants stuffs.
WTH! getting sick of them.
Whats worse is my timing man.
IT like i'm sleeping at dawn?
Waking in the noon?
LOL what am i doing to my body clock?
OMG!
Guess what 2 days ago, i could actually forget that i haven't eat for about 24hrs?
Hahas.... Perhaps my stomach is bloated with water...
I think grandma could be discharge soon.... really hope she could enjoy herselves before her condition worsens.
As in, i have to face the fact now that shes really aging and i have to learn to let go.

Okay lets not talk about the sad thing.
Well, tomorrow is my birthday .
Since its after 12 am now.
I wonder who would be the first to wish me ....
For the past few years, it would be Andee Dominic they all and my sis.
This year i don't know?
But of course in my mind, i do have high hopes that a couple of people would wish me at 12 am tmr. hahas.
Thats my birthday wish?
Simple but i doubt achievable.

Abit about my past few days.
Mainly slacking at home.
Went for bowen's drama performance.
(= surely it was nice . Thanks Tawei for accompanying me.
Ever play chopsticks with real sticks ?
Well, i did. hahas lame right?
Oh and i'm fired so jobless again.
SO poor. sigh.
And, i have to buy birthday presents for ppl(s) how?
lols i also dun know.LOL

kk i gtg . Good night readers.
Do drop a tag before leaving.
Regardlesss who you are =)
Which ever gender, even if you are an animal or even a DOG! lols
joking - hahas i purposely say that to disturb some one some brudder leh ! LOL!

Letting go is difficult , but after you've really let go, perhaps you will see a different picture.
Forget the past and enjoy the future.
There goes primary , soon comes the end of secondary, whats next?
Realised people? Whenever they become history, they become sweet memories even though they might be bitter when its present. Perhaps we'll just have to appreciate NOW!
And leave no regrets for TIME WAITS FOR NO ONE!

2006-12-05T23:26:00.000-08:00

I canceled my birthday party.

2006-12-03T13:29:00.000-08:00

i think i got lots of friends but i don't hear from them.
whenever i need them, i notice no ones there.

2006-12-02T14:59:00.000-08:00

Well, as i slept at about 0530am ytd, i woke up at 1300pm ytd.
Lols
When i wake up , didn't know what i should do for the day...
I suddenly feel like going school.
At least, during school days, life arent that bored.
Sigh.
I miss my school friends , classmates , school life. Playing bball in school.
SO many and many things that i miss.
Even that simple that of going home after school.
Those days were so OVER now.
Sigh, sigh and sigh.
I am really missing alot of people and things.
I sat on my bed even after i'm awake ... all the way till about 2+ reaching 3.
Cook my own lunch , so lazy...
Granny still in hospital. when can she be discharged? i dunnoe.
My birthday party, it may be cancelled too, i promised by next friday, i'll give a proper detailed plan.
After lunch caixin and hoonsiang came to my house to play DOTA...
The game which kept me up whole night ytd.
I was still very tired than so i went to slp leaving them to play. lols
When i woke up i realise hoonsiang left , so went for dinner with caixin and joey tagged along.
Yea so thanks joey for the treat hahas.
The rojak at prata shop really not bad ...
hmm thats all for today bahx, after dinnner was like gaming only?
I know i know, i like no life right?
WHat to do?
i don't have the mood to be hyper you know?
sigh.

going sleep now. ITs 3 am.
Realise i have been sleeping very late nowadays.
Have to wake up by 8. so about 5hours of slp left...

Oh ya HAPPY BIRTHDAY daddy!

why isn't there ppl tagging own their own will without me asking? lols
or why aren't the people i hoped to tag my board gone too?

2006-12-01T14:59:00.000-08:00

Well, as i slept at about 0530am ytd, i woke up at 1300pm ytd.
Lols
When i wake up , didn't know what i should do for the day...
I suddenly feel like going school.
At least, during school days, life arent that bored.
Sigh.
I miss my school friends , classmates , school life. Playing bball in school.
SO many and many things that i miss.
Even that simple that of going home after school.
Those days were so OVER now.
Sigh, sigh and sigh.
I am really missing alot of people and things.
I sat on my bed even after i'm awake ... all the way till about 2+ reaching 3.
Cook my own lunch , so lazy...
Granny still in hospital. when can she be discharged? i dunnoe.
My birthday party, it may be cancelled too, i promised by next friday, i'll give a proper detailed plan.
After lunch caixin and hoonsiang came to my house to play DOTA...
The game which kept me up whole night ytd.
I was still very tired than so i went to slp leaving them to play. lols
When i woke up i realise hoonsiang left , so went for dinner with caixin and joey tagged along.
Yea so thanks joey for the treat hahas.
The rojak at prata shop really not bad ...
hmm thats all for today bahx, after dinnner was like gaming only?
I know i know, i like no life right?
WHat to do?
i don't have the mood to be hyper you know?
sigh.

going sleep now. ITs 3 am.
Realise i have been sleeping very late nowadays.
Have to wake up by 8. so about 5hours of slp left...

why isn't there ppl tagging own their own will without me asking? lols
or why aren't the people i hoped to tag my board gone too?

2006-11-30T09:31:00.000-08:00

These few days were really very packed for.
Really very packed.

It all started on Serene's wedding on sunday.
In between the wedding dinner, a bad news came.
A relative of mine passed away.
She was my parents aunt.
However, no one left the wedding dinner as yet.
Dinner just carried on though everyone was feeling abit sad in their hearts.
I remembered the way , grand aunt - thats what i call her , talked to me.
She was always there during any special ocasions , all i can say is shes friendly (=
But whos knows, such a kind soul would have to suffer from stroke and pass away.
Leaving us just like that. Really, cant bear so.

Just the next day, the worst thing happened.
Grandma was admitted into hospital. I was really worried.
Worried like f**k. She was already quite old you know?
I remembered i was taking a nap when i heard she was admitted into hospital, i JUMPED up stright.
Sad to say till now, shes still in hospital.
Lying there on the bed, i'm sure shes very bored. Its been 3 days and she still cant leave the ward.
The doctor just keep checking and checking , wtf!!! when will the doctors give us a detailled explaination of her situation?
I spent a night with her in the hospital. The hospital don't allow me to stay in the room afterr 12am. Thus i waited just outside and i check on her every hour. I realise that my grandma really aged. Its been so long since i look at her so closely and really giving her all my attention.
Regretted the times where i promised her i would back for dinner and i didn't.
Now shes on drip and thus she cant eat.
Sigh i really hope i could suffer the pain for her. I really mean it.
sigh sigh sigh.
The current reports are still unclear. Hope the next reports which will be coming out be GOOD!
i cry , i hoped , i beg , i would do anything just for her to recover!!!!!

Today, i went out with my primary school friends.
This gathering was long ago fixed, so i had to go.
Really look forward for it!
The 3 of time are my buddies in pri school.
Ruijie Joel Edward.
Till this very day, i still could remember their hse numbers since pri school.
(=
Somehow i wanna thank the 3 of them for they made my day!
We were abit like strangers today cuz the 3 of us havent met up since 4yrs ago?
However, with of past bonds , we manage to get the conversations in.
We caught a movie - casio royale 007.
Okok only lahx.
Just that , i will remember this movie ALOT!
As its the movie which the four of us watch together after so many years!!!!!
i just love my pri school friendS(=

I realised i have been also been neglecting some friends these few days.
So wanna apologiese to them.
I really had been busy and PACKED!
really tiring.
however, all this at least manage to keep my mind away from something.

sigh

Oh ya ppl, my phone siao siao one! all the contacts lost.
so ppl dun blame me for asking who are you when u msg or call me...
hahas
If possible, tag and leave ur numbers and hse numbers.
So eaiser for me!
thnaks
bye bye
post another time

2006-11-25T01:02:00.000-08:00

Its 26nov now since its after 12am.
Caixin and friends would be back tonight at 10+pm i think.
Hmm, abit about ytd.

It sure was a day long and tiring day.
I woke up knowing that my father was admited into hospital.
Well, what the fuck? so much happened when i was sleep? Yet no one woke me up to tell me what had happening.
So daddy choke on a duck bone and it was very deep into the thorat.
That was what i know in the begining but i cant go to the hospital stright.
I had the 3on3 match. Sigh.
I was very confused than, it reminded me of dominic's dad choking on a fish bone before.
At that point of time, all i hope was that daddy would be alright.
Sure he is now sleeping as usual there. hahas
Shall not talk about some unhappy stuffs.
The maing thing is, relatives scolding me for bballing rather than going to hospital.
They even said that we don't concern for my dad.
I really wonder have they thought about how much their words could harm us?...
Surely, i was super angry and frusfrated.
Today was a MONEYLESS day!
totally had no money with me so pathetic.
When to serangoon to take mrt.
On the way i saw gordon and i was thinking is he going to the 3on3 too?
Well, surely he did.
Timothy junhao and I played to our best we can. Gd job guys.
((=
We won 3 rounds and went into quarter finals.
GUESS WHAT!
Our opponents are gordon hanbin and cheeyeong.
That 2 so gay lah , as in they so TALL!!!!
wth!
Taller than timothy and jun hao leh.
Both taller than junhao leh. and is alot taller.
OH YA!!! I PULLED THE RING! hahhas
2 hand? yea man!

So of cuz at quarter finals we were knock out.
22vs13
sigh nvm we will try harder.
ahhas

so finnaly i met gordon at the bball court after so long.
I remembered timothy saying that we will meet one day...
so really we did.
He didnt really perform so i still dunnoe his standard .
As such, i still cant tell what made him enter nationals.
Well, lets waiit for other opportunities for us to meet again.
I will be waiting for that day to come. again.
At least he still rememeber as joey's brother. lols

After the bball match, i went to braddell heights .
Saw junhao (bwss) , xingyong , jimmy , winston they all.
Too many to name. So i joined them.
See them play soccer and soon it rained.
Have to go home lor.
Than i slp all the way till 11plus than wake up...
okok so now i'm going to slp again
hahas!

Good night ppl.

Perhaps, i will try letting her go.
Forgeting her.
Thanks to those who have been listening to me.
and hearing me tok cock ... lols

i am really missing school.
sigh
misiing alot of friends.!
sigh
i am in need of MONEY too.

WISH ME ALL THE BEST TOMOLO, i mean later, FOR JOB HUNT! lolx

2006-11-24T00:34:00.000-08:00

I don't know.
I don't know.
I really don't know.

Now what i can do is to try to concentrate on the 3on3 game in a few hours time.
Wish me all the best.

Can i really give up and forget you?

sigh.

2006-11-23T01:17:00.000-08:00

I know its not her fault.
For i can't force her to have feelings for me.
I know its not his fault, to have feeling for her.
Their relationship is their choice i have no right to interfere even if i love her wholeheartedly.
Yet, i cant help , cant help thinking of her.
Hoping and wishing to be with her.
Seeing them so close together just now, my heart just sank.
There was a strange and weird feeling all of a sudden.
My heart was really like in pain. Really.
Its like someone grip onto my heart and never let go.
I simply can't do anything but to sit at one corner all alone, seeing them together.
Soon, i couldn't tolerate any further, i went off.
Sitting in the cab all alone, thinking why aren't any one stopping me from leaving just now?
No one even ask about my early departure.
My exsistance was like , of no importance.
After i reach home, i place my coat and took off my shirt .
Went out the house again with only my singlet and jeans on.
Kept walking and walkind thinking where i should go.
In the end i found myself walking along rosyth road.
Walking and crying.
Its just uncontrolable.
I love you cailing.
Really i do.

2006-11-21T22:14:00.000-08:00

FUCKED UP!!!!!!

2006-11-18T01:53:00.000-08:00

Hmm this is my current ivitiation list.
DId i miss anyone out?
if have pls tag and tell me i miss u out
or u wanna be invited lols
anyway nothing to do oso can tag me.
TAG ME PPL!
or Write me testimonials.

SN2 16ppl

bobby

eugene

alex

junhao

dominic

andre

nat

darren

timothy

jiazheng

jovyn

youjing

kimli

esther

yeeling

shangling

KX OASIS GMSS 16ppl

andee

eden

ben

nigel

justin

diana

shu han

yanhui

amanda

yvvone

sherlene

slyvia

yishan

K,K,

dominic

dalton

BOWEN PPL

UpperSEc (2006)

10

caixin

kailun

hanxiang

harvey

hoonsiang

kelana

kokchen

yinghui

clestine

adrina

27

darric

jinqin

wahid

mustaqim

ivan

gereld

desmond

tawei

peisheng

andy

cailing

kenneth

zongda

celina

bijuan

xinjun

eleena

susan

junan

sijie

weilun

chirstabel

charmaine

limin

vannessa

changsheng

ryan

Lower SEc

10

zhengli

gibson

matthew

Cheong huat

leonard

jackson

sean

leon

eugene

shall end of with apologising for aeroplane.lols
sorry bobby and eugene.
anyway you guess did well is ur team ppl ll.
so (=

PS: today slept for 12 hours! shiok
and found myself an idiotic brother who looks like a dog lols

2006-11-17T01:42:00.000-08:00

Hmm i shall start with saying Bon Voyage to Caixin , hoonsiang , celina , xinjun and the rest of my friends who would be going to china-xiamen.
Hahas maybe you ppl would meet my sis? shes there now i guess.

Well, the next ten days would be a SNORE free days bahx.
we would sure miss the slut's lameness hahas!
kk. Lets pray that they would safely land and return ! hahas

Abit about today.
Woke up at 1030 to go for DnT lesson which starts at 9?
Well i'm super late lahx!
hahas hmm anyway i HECK dnt le lol!
Mr leow treated pizza. Candian pizza hahas better than nothing
Next, went to pass zhengli some things and go home lor...
Soon, went to sn there the clinic with caixin.
He sick like never sick like tt siao 1. Somemore tommorrow, er.. i mean later, hes going xiamen.
hahas hope that he would get well soon bahx.
Than, took a cab to kovan plkcc with chong huat.
Wanted to watch bwss vs maris match. but, it rained so we go other place play bball lor.
Well dun tok about that bahx. It sucks totally ...
Went back to Sn2. play seriously and well it paid off!
I shall start to play bball seriously and not play around
This is how i'm gonna improve!
Basketball is my LIFE!

WEll thats about it for today!
Kinda lazy to post anymore.

ALL THE BEST TO
BOBBY YEO WEI LIANG! liang liang
EUGENE YEO WEI JING! jing jing
for their competion tml.!
haha~!

2006-11-16T02:08:00.000-08:00

JOB HUNTING!!!!
I needa find an income ((=
lols

2ndly, i'm quite happy for someone agreed to go out with me(=
With a group of cuz
however , someone said that we aren't that close afterall.
sad seh. But nvm, i'll work harder(=
lols

Today was a long day.
Tiring...
Tomolo DNT! sianz.
hahas
Post another time ba. Now very sian!
Sigh, quite vexed.!

6hrs of slp more...lols

2006-11-15T00:42:00.000-08:00

Hmm today stared off GREAT!!!!
Sis called and told me she got me ADIDAS JACKET!!!!
THANKS YOU SIS!!! I LOVE YOU! hahas
Opp not you, is the JACKET!!!

After i woke up, slack around played abit of silk road and Dota.
Than, went to meet up with timo and darren to go plkcc play bball.
Well, went there to play for fun lor. So f-ing slack than timo not happy . hahas
Sorry MO!!! i will learn to be serious. Eh 3on3!!! we will win! at least a few rounds? lols
I try my best so will you right?

We left plkcc at about 530?
and we went to SN2 play bball.
I FUCKING PISSED OF WITH SOMEONE!!!!
became very serious and aggresive.
not ROUGH!!! hahas thats wat eugene say.
Its okay.
So was quite hot than. Though i was slipppering lols which means i havent wear shoe which all the way was left in my bag.
hahas just now at plkcc also never wear. hahass.
I just wanna let the person know.
YOU BETTER KNOW YOUR LIMITS!
really very pissed off!

Soon we stop balling and celebrate esther birthday.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ESTHER!!!
Wah i kanna honey dip into puddle of water. Fuck.
If not for the rest are too heavy i sure will to dip them too. lols
There was the taopok oso. Poor caixin all the way at the bottom
hahahahahas
Sorry dom didnt know u bath le. So put cream on ur face.
hahas i started the cream and hence i sufered the most in the celebration.
though at first they say not to play cream today. But i HECK! lols
Hmm bobby looks better today. Hope he can get well and fit soon!
WIN YOUR GAME WITH EUGENE K!
I'll be there to support you!!!! if i can lolx
At least you will have my moral suppport!
Go for it BObby and EUgnee!!!
Tomolo will be the last paper for some people .
How envious hahas. anyway i already heck it too
lols!
Gotta go find job soon!
any lobang tell me k ppl!
have to work and earn abit for the PARTY!
My birthday party!

Hmm thats all for today .!
Post tomolo i guess!
BYEBYE!

2006-11-14T00:03:00.000-08:00

Keep thinking about all my happy moments in the past with all my friends
About those unhappiness too.
Alot of thought on her.
A long day indeed.

I don't wanna be LLL!
sigh!
Basketball.
Studies.
Friendship.
Relationship.
Which one would go most smoothly?
i dunnoe.

Amaths was okay.
Bball was lousy performance for me.
............
Sian

2006-11-13T01:40:00.000-08:00

Its 0138am. But i'm not sleepingFor i know my loyal blog readers are waiting for me to post. LOL!So long since i uploaded pics to my com.So i decided to post some pics today!(=
This was taken on the last day of schoolWhen i having Breakfast with gibson. hahasWake up so early just to eat .Yea i just love MAC's hot cakes lols

My new shoe
all my old shoes spoil le... sad
oh ya i bought this shoes with another few pplSo , alot of ppl hav lols

NIce rite?

Hmm this pic is so random.Dun bother about it hahas.

Hmm caixin and jovyn came my hse ytd (since its past 12am)Wah my house beomce LAN centre.hahas nvm.You guys are welcome.

ERpp timothy on my bed lols

oh my got 3 gays gaying on my bed.Fuck lor2 of them just play bball and caixin just had track training.SWEAT all on my bed.Gotta change the cover tonight le la.hahas

hmm another random picwats bobby doing?hahas I also dunnoeThis was taken few days ago. After we bought the shoes.See jovyn at the back pointing middle finger. hahas

HMM!!! lolsCuz eugene injured his hairy leg than have to put the STICKY salmon pason the leg. HE scared pain so slowly pull out cuz all the hair stucked.So, i helped him.I PULL ALL AT ONE SHOT! HE SCREAM IN PAIN!Its like braizillan wax. hahas PULLING ALL HIS HAIR OUT lols cool

hmm ya grannys birthday just past. 81
so happy seeeing her smileI love my grandma(=
hmm 2 cakes loh hahas

Hmm guess which are my parents?My mum is the one standing at the left hand side.At the back covered one not the red shirt one. lols Hows my oral discription? oh and dad is beside mum.

OKOK enough about pics.Abit about today bball.Hmm sorry if i did something wrong.

2006-11-07T00:15:00.000-08:00

Theres actually been another post which i wanted to publish.
Yet i just don't know why i can't. I think its blogger's fault.
Now, its so many days after, and i so decide not to repost it.
Well, basically its about my msn nick that day.
About ppl keeping things from me and letting me find out.
Empty promises and aeroplanes.
After many days of thinking i guess its time, its time i learn to let go.
Letting go of somethings maybe painful, but i guess its better of that way.
If people will want to trust me, they would long told me , without me finding out myself by chance? Sigh.
Dun wanna talk about it anymore.
Next , i wanted to talk abit about jovyn and respect.
But, i guess , if i will to want respect, the friendship would be worse hence , i chose friendship.
hahas, but if he going to go over board another time, I going to F his nei nei 200 times! lols

Chemistry wasn't ideal today.
Poor tawei wrote wrong centre code. Hope nothing would happen to him ba.
Maths p1 was easy but i have already find out a few careless mistakes but its really easy. lols
Tomorrow is english and physics. Hope the best ((=

I guess i have alreay plan my stuffs after my O levels.
I'm really stressed up abit k? lol
So let me digress.
After O levels.
find a job
go eat at chomp chomp
movie
slack
my birthday party preparations
overseas trip (gotta go make pass port which expire years ago, i always stay in spore (= loyality)
hair salon
prom night
so many and so many
So lets hope that i can go thru this few days smoothly at at least go into a average couse in poly.

anyway ppl.
talking about my birthday, i of cuz have my own wish list!
-adidas vintage sweater
-nike watch
-shades
-basketball shoe ( i think i gonna get it soon myself, my old one spoil le got hole - 4mths)
-more nice clothes
-dye hair
-casual shoes
-bags
-new specs
-too many to be named all this can be bought by cash. here comes those which cant.
-all those whom i'm gonna invite to come.
-the party to go smoothly
-everlasting friendships
-bball skills improve
-gd O levels results
-and.... sigh alots of things but they aren't convident to be said here.

kk gotta go!
bye people!

2006-11-02T23:28:00.000-08:00

sigh.
I cant study.
I got too much useless and usefull things to think of.
Theres so much to distract me.
I know i sure will regret but, what can i do?
I don't know.
Somehow somewhat, i made alots of mistake, move alot of wrong and redunctant steps.
Choosing the right paths are important in life, and i know i chose the wroong 1.
I just have to wait for an opportunity for me to see a U turn and start all over again.

Postivity will be back within me.
I hope.

2006-11-01T05:06:00.000-08:00

I'm still not asleep!
because of DOTA!
hahas really will addicted one lehx.
8min more to 5.
i feel like ordering mac? should i?

Well, ytd, since its 4hr 51mins and 47.32secs after 12am.
(detailed right? learned from some funny ar guy one"
I didnt go to the hospital.
For these few days keep going in and out of hospital also abit very sianz.
Tiring man.
I woke up at about 10 plus than go job interviewSSS!
i am in need of money now. BADLY in need of money.
Or else you ppl will not get ur chirstmas presents.
And a number of you who birthday a round the corner or evens past.
Sorry about belated presents . lols

I think we should just let go. Though it may be heart breaking and cruel to think in such a way.
Shes already so old , whatever the results would be ( good or bad- hopefully not ) , we cant possibly send her for an operation right? For her condition its no way we can do so.
If the results is really the so called " worse case senerio " , i really would just hope than we could bring her home. I believe she misses home.
FARKING DOCTORS when can you discharge grandma?
I really feel like scolding the doctors and nurses.
They are like so SLOW! we just have to wait for reports and reports.
And the reports always jsut show maybe this or that.
NO FIXED ANSWER!
wtf? it has been days man! come on doc, dun pull down singapore's medical reputation!
shyt!
Furthermore the farking nurse can actually misplace patients files?
wth lor.
What if they misplace medicine?
wah... cant stand their service? so good !!! =(

okok thats all about the hospital part.
Now, i just hope that grandma could be discharged soon, hoping her condition to improve.
THats all i would be contented with!

about my birthday party, sadly to say it MAY be canceled.
I would blog about it again. Not very sure.
The buffet person say just need 3 days notice can le.
So seehow bahx on a later date than decide maybe 1 week b4?

Just now, played bball alone in the dark.. hahas quite fun lahx.
Went there to relax lor.
today really another tiring day!
Going go slp now.
tired like fark!

byebye

oh ya happy birthday (dec1 ) to daddy.
(=

2006-10-31T01:32:00.000-08:00

Sigh. just came back from prata shop.
ALL ALONE eating.
hias....
No one would accompany me? lols
cuz i know some ppl ask = no need ask
or else is parents dun allow.
hahas dunnnoe la
sian half

Once again, it has past mid-night.
I noticed that i haven't been getting enough sleep.
Especially the few nights. They are getting more sleepless.
Its difficult to doze off, although i maybe lying on the super comfortable bed.
Furthermore, even when i'm really tired , still cant sleep. sigh.
Sometimes when i needed a listener there are none.
I somehow have a wish currently.
That is to have someone to accompany talk on the phone till i fall asleep.

My gastric have really been giving me problems these few days too.
Always have irregular appetite and i always have breakfast and lunch together.
Dinner and supper together.
Not enough sleep plus not enough nutrition. How am i going to train?
hahas dunnoe?

today had training by david.
Together with SN mates.
Really dammit shag. Very tired now.
I ran the most lor.
overall, training is good. but now really tired needa rest.

i'm missing people like crazy.
loving bball , my friends and her. thats all i just wanna do

I think my life is like delicated to:
My FRIENDS!!!!
BasketBall.
and..... sigh.

current song- peng you

2006-10-30T22:17:00.000-08:00

Morning met caixin for breakfast-prata.
Prata wasn't as nice today.

Today's chinese was alright.
Thats all i wanna say- no other comments.

Said "hi" to her.
In school.

After exams, went for lunch with kok chen, cedric and harvey.
Ermm, i am just so polluted by them.
Prank call yinghui as we were bored. But she also like not lively one.
lols

So i was too tired to tahan. Fell asleep at court.
Today did at least 200pumpings i thing.
Cuz we play forfeit. 3 pointers
Kangwei came down today. As usual call me to keep calm and play my game.
Well, bball is just my life (=
I will train train and train.!

Tomorrow i'm working.
Gotta earn some quick cash (=

kk have to sleep early
Bye

2006-10-29T22:11:00.000-08:00

Tomorrow is my second chance to score A1 for my chinese.
Really hoped i could do well.
All the best to myself(=
O levels are just a weeks time away.
Its here. so quickly.
Well, i will get this over.
With at least PRESENTABLE results and get myself into a course i want.
Or even to jc? i'm not sure yet.

Today, wake up late and late for tuiton.
Me and andee again super late. hahas
When we entered the classroom, everyone was like.. " eeee that 2 pia kia late for 45mins."
lols than we had no tables. so only chairs. lols
As usual we two joke around and really am so distracting =X .
lols
Sure we had fun.
After which, they 2 ( andee and dal) had their lunch.
I accompanied them but did not eat. saviing money ya know.
I'm planning to organise a super duper big and cool birthday party for myself.
I will invite EVERYONE I KNOW (=
cool rite? so that needs lots and lots of money. Hope it could work out smoothly.
Anyway people if you all got lobangs to rent bungalows in a daily basis , let me know . thanks.

Went home for lunch ( nasi lemak ) yummpy delicious.(=
Next went to play bball. Sigh no training today. Cause kangwei come down late.
Than the rain came.
I was so envious seeing them playing in the rain.
hope we can have training another time. (=
The rest of us taking O levels stayed in the void deck.
We are smart k? we won't sacrifise our future.
But they were like really having damm loads of fun...
I really hoped to join. but, i can't.
CaiXin and Jovyn really can clique well. lols
Somehow i noticed that. lol!!!
Oh ya few days ago day ago, darren injured his head and we brought him to the doctor.
Pity him no bball for the next few days. Get well soon k? hahhas so i can gai you. If i can. lol
ya, and lets hope the rest of the guys wont fall sick after playing in the rain today. (=
kk i gonna slp early today.
Post another time.

missing friends like crazy, missing you like crazy.
<3>
Thank people who always are there for me (=
Thanks you.
2days no dl(=
yea!!!

the cheerfull me will be back

good luck ppl for Os and As

2006-10-26T01:10:00.000-07:00

I'm feeling very down.
Really.
I suck big time.
Basketball
Studies
Relationships
Friendships
so many more.
I really suck!
What the point of living?

I really miss them all.
I missing so many of them!

can boys cry?

2006-10-25T13:21:00.000-07:00

Yesterday was too tired to post.
So , i've have to face the fact.
The rest of the pupils would officially end school today.
This year is the fastest year i guess. SO many things happened.
So much came , and so much goes away.
There was regrets , sadness and unhappiness.
I'll miss alot of people. I'll miss school.
And even some teachers.
There goes my chances i guess.
No more school for me.
My secondary school life has come to an end.
sigh.. sigh..
I really feeling so down. =(
what can i do ? nothing?
This is part of life. Cruelty of life.
Things just have to become memories. They aren't everlasting.
Nothing is forever .
=(

Let me talk abit about ytd.
Met gibson in the morning for breakfast at macdonals.
That would be the last time we can go to school together i guess.
When i reach school, things aren't much different though.
I played bball in school for the last time i guess.
As in, playing bball during a school day.
Thanks tawei for accompanying me to pon the hall thingy and play basketball.
After school, dave ng gave me tution for chinese just for awhile... Thanks. Though he is no longer my teacher but he helps me(= a good teacher indeed though in the past i always insult him but he never bear grudges.
sigh... once agian.
Next, i went out of school with reluctant. Sigh . sigh and sigh.
Sigh. SIGH!!!!!!!!!! argh..........
sian!
I didn't talk to her today in school. ='(
sigh.
So, i met timothy outside school, followed by darren and lastly caixin.
When we reached nyp, we searched for eugene and lastly met up with dom and junhao
Hmm, went to nyp to play bball. The people there really not bad .
Then, after bballing, went to nyp canteen to eat.
Not bad la food is cheap and alot.
With aircon. Better than bowen no aircon. But i still love bowen's canteen. Cuz, there always be good friends around there. sigh.
After food, went back home .
Our trip there was fun . lols with snores.
Back i really fell asleep so i dunnoe what happen with the rest.
But i'm sure there was tonnes of laughters . (=
sn2 ppl always so funny de. with KOL around everything would be L . lols
Sorry caixin for ps him.

hias.=(
okok i'm going out to meet timothy. bye

2006-10-23T00:21:00.000-07:00

Sigh.
The second last day .
Its gone just like that.
Wednesday is the last day of my entire SECONDARY SCHOOL LIFE ='(
Its too fast for me to accept.
I'm sad.
My greatest fear.
........................................................................................................

Today didn't meet jovyn and caixin for school.
Sigh.
Quarrel with parents.
Sigh.
Wasn't really a memorable school day.
Sigh.
Played basketball in school. Bad performance.
Sigh.
Watch movie with eugene and kok chen
(=
Rob b hood.
Oh ya believe it or not, eugene can JUMP fantastically.
Study with Nat too. Eugene ( SN2) came.
(= we talked alot . lols
......................................................................................

I still can't move on with life.
I have to leave bowen soon.
I hate to leave.
I can't bear to leave.
I love my school.
I love my school mates.
I......................... sigh

can i cry?

2006-10-22T00:50:00.000-07:00

Sunday.
Less than 2 weeks more. sigh.
Been thinking alot today.
Seeing what i always no hoped to.
Anyway peope tell me if i play too rough during bball.
I'm sorry for somethings too.
I got so much to say but i can't.
For somethings you must let people to know it themselves.
SIGH.

I dislike today.

GGRRRR nat- i'm gonna nip flip u.
Jovyn also. trick me into tao pok. FIsh u.! lols

don't feel like saying much today. post another time ba.
Oh ya .... maybe participating in youth cup (=
Nat and Junhao also agreed lols.

Players at court today
-andre
-bobby
-caixin
-darren
-dominic
-eugene
-jia zheng
-jovyn
-junhao
-lester
-natdaniel
-timothy
-xiao ming

today i trained alot. improve quite abit .
but this didn't make my day enought.
Othes stuffs made it sucks.
But at least a little happy.
Will improve more (=
now super duper tired
kk going off bye

Tag people tag pls.
I hope for some ppl to tag and read daily.
Will they?

2006-10-21T01:09:00.000-07:00

I think i really tried too hard.
Tried so hard in everything but studies.

Basketball.
I really tried my best.
Really. Though some always tell me, "theres no such things as trying your best".
Perhaps, i can also say, sorry. I've dissapoint you.
I am a human. with limits.
Still, i would try and try to improve but .... sigh i don't know.
O levels coming yet, my heart is mostly on others things, on of the most is basketball.
Yes, you are right jun hao, i do seek attention. But not from kangwei.
I seek attention from everyone.
You can't deny that you don't need attention. Everybody needs them.
Even when you ask me a question and i answer you.
By answering is an attention give.
Just like sometimes you say thanks to people, they would most likely reply welcome.
This is also attention.
I of cause hope people to give me attention. To tell me wherther if i improved.
Where i have gone wrong.
I need attention to feel reconigsed. To tell me what i did is right or wrong.
Thats all. No other ulterior motives.
Just imagine people, if one day, everyone ignores you.
No one gives you attention. Not even your friends , your family or even strangers .....
How would you feel?
Even up to today, i'm still cock up in my basketball.
I'm just a noob. Whats the point of hanging?
My patterns and moves have become habits.
Bad habits. I hang too long. Thats what Nat told me.
I treid to change thinking it was easy.
But, i was too use to it. wtf.
Still, i notice lots and lots of weakness in me.
HOW!!!! i'm get more and more moody.
I tried to improve but, i just can't.
Yet now people are telling me i tried to hard.
Yes, i admit i'm happy when i was commented that i have move but not smooth.
At least, i have something. But so what? I'm still so noob.
I'm now like a player who no one ner choses.
I can't shoot. I can't past. I can't go in. I am not stable and calm. WTF!
Sigh. at least i think i was better in the past in the area of basics.
I was over complacent at times. I lost to xiao ming . that was fact.
I just have to admit. What else can i do? except training.?
I need help people. MOTIVATE ME.
yet sometimes when i realy feel like training . I am too tired.
I think its other areas of my life which made me so tired.

Studies.
Yes people, i do admit i do study.
Its not as in what i always say, study for what? the most retain can accompany caixin than jovyn ...
Come on people, who would like to retain? Theres so much pressure to face if you retain. I do know that.
So, i do study. But, i am always too distracted to do so.
Another problem is i can only study in the night. Around 11-3... thus, i'm always tired in the day.
yet whenever i'm studying, they arent as fruitfull as i hoped.
In the past , i could concentrate better. I know i'm thinking too much but, i cant help to stop thinking.
I aimed for JC that was always the way. But , i just don't know! I'm afriad. really.
I always tell bobby, i would start! Yes i did start, but it werent serious at all.
He would be right as this rate i'm going oni would regrat.
yet , if i really start , i think it is DEFINATELY not enought time.
I dont know. I',m confused. really very confused.
I have to admit, i'm sad.
I chosen this path and now, i've regret.
However the situation is beyond salvagve i guess.

Relationship.
Somehow, this is another thing which is affecting me . ALOT!
Because of some people, its like everyone know who i like.
They have different comments and views.
Yet, mostly people advice me to give up.
I cant. sigh. thats what i can say.
Its not only this way.
I don't like her status now.
Her relationship with 2 of my friends.
I just don't know.
Someone always tell me that i would never have a chance to be with her.
Yet, that someone , i always regard as a very good friend. But , that person never motivates me.
Also, some of the SN2 people have always had comments.
I somehow dislike them to comment on this area.
In school, people like darric will also persuade me to give up.
It always been like that. He would say something like,
"you haven't move on? I think you should give up".
I have been here this from so many people countless time. what can i do?
I really dunnoe.
I'm vexed.
some people would also use sarcastic tones on this issue.
Or even comment about her.
Sigh. i'm frusfrated, hurt and unhappy.
I just wanna say, this kinda thing, where got say want give up can give up.

Friendship.
(this would be the longest topic i guess)

I would start with firsty, theres only 2 more days of my secondary school life in school with other students who are not graduating. Sigh, this 3 years coming 4 of my secondary school life is going to end just like that?
Its just so soon. I havent really been having enought of them! BUT I WILL NOT RETAIN!
I LOVE MY SECONDARY SCHOOL LIFE!
I'm afriad i will lose contact with my friends, mostly juniors.
Yes, i do admit i only have minority good friends in my level. Really minority.
Yet, there is one who i really treat as good friend treat me like... a 2nd degree friend? er, maybe worse.
I don't know.about this, i have been so sad about it really very. it all started since july till today.
Whenever i see that person around in school, i will feel very weird. REALLY!!! very weird.
Its like, sigh i don't know how to say.
Guess i can name only afew who i really treat as very good friends in my level.
Namely,
Darric, TaWei , Wahid , Mustaqim , perhaps a few more, i can't think.
Well the rest of the people i would fear i would lose contacts with my juniors.
Firstly they are younger than me. Next, would they wanna keep in contact with me or will it be one sided.
Somehow i dislike people to make me feel so one sided at time. Like, only i wanna be their friend but they dun wanna be my friends. you may think i'm stupid but, its just like this.
OR else is someppl . WONT GIVE RESPECT AT ALL!
even when i'm older than them, they wont give me at least abit of respect.
I know, i seldom am angry or perhaps, even when i am at bad mood , I TRY MY BEST NOT TO ATTITUDE THEM!
But, what do i get? I dun mind not getting anything. But, what i get are critisism. attitudes.
Yet i must admit sometimes , or many atimes, i am happy being with them.
Their silliness and non stop laughters. and that DOUBLE J!
The times i spent with my friends are always the happiest.
My basketball friends (sn2) SMILES =D, i am often with them now.
Firstly i wanna apologise for being petty these few time.
I'm really have been going through alot.
Stress have been falling on me. thanks to you people, i have my un-lonely meals and time.
THANKS! a big big thanks. Sorry alex. that day i attidue you. i was really in bad mood.
Sorry the rest. i specially mention alex as i really VERY attitude him i know.
Hope he won't hold it against me. Have a nice holiday.
Lastly, i never forget KX!
My childhood friends. My bros. SInce the day we all moved out.
I knew it from the start. We would contact less. Our navie past always think that this would not be possible but it is. Thus, because of this incident, i'm afriad i would lose contact with most of my exsisting friends.
sigh.
We are all busy, most of us taking O level. I hereby wish us all the best!
For the exceptional 2 , good luck for your dip and A levels.
the youngers ones, all the best in your future.
I miss the times we played in the swimming pool.
I miss the times sleeping at he basket ball court.
I miss the times ....... those times which i took for granted.
They are impossible now, oasis garden has toren down.
Sorry people, we are meeting less nowadays. I guess it would be soon. lets endure awhile more.
(=

well, gonna end of with a little about today.
Had bball training in the morning than go for lunch at prata shop with eugene and bobby.
Next went back to bath and go eugene hse study with nat. Sorry nat. I feel guilty.
You like so unhappy studying with me.
After which played bball again than had dinnet at 147.
western food as usual. cuz bobby works there.
but the food also nice la.
sigh , my bball skilss are so lousy.
Caixin is back from his chalet.
Darren new shoes are cool .
Jia Zheng is out for his new appearence.

I remebered they 3 were like a group which i often hang around with before i know the rest.
There was this period of time Jia Zheng was gone. And now, i wanna say welcome back.
lols.

Thats all for today.
thanks for reading todays post if you had.
Its so long.

Good night people.
Bye

I love
-basket ball
-my friends
-her
............................................................. sigh.

2006-10-17T01:24:00.000-07:00

->death note movie i wanna watch(=i think i will watch for more than once yea(=Its a nice show i recomend all (=the comic is nice too(=

This is what you can see if you are standing at VIVO city sky gareden.Opposite is none other than sentosa. So long since i went there =(Missing it so MUCH!Anyway this sky garden is a good place for couples.lolsPpl who go there would know. lolshope can go with some one lols.opps dreamming again . sigh

Look at alex so daring. Taunting mr eugene.ahahas hes immitating all of eugenes moves.lets see how long can eugne tolerate before he MANS

The man lols. cool rite?the auntie behind one his number but he dun wan give leh.hahas

This is my workout corner. mirror , chairs and dumb-bell.whats the stupidest bell? the dumb bell lols.Laptop (= my music providor.

Another pic taken(=JunHao TaWei Me Eugene.hahas i know so many eugeneand they are all nice(=accept for the one with sirname same as jovyn lols.okok shall say no more.eugene: nipple flip here i come . lolsMe: grrr , RUN FOR UR NIPPLE

Yesterday had supper alone.Sigh .See milo dinosaur leh.COOl@=prata prata prata is like my daily routine.

Look my slippers are so dirty and old.Whos so kind to get me one?My birthdays coming soon (=ahahas actually still quite far.

a random pic of eugene.

another random pic of tawei

ahahas me and tawei in toilet.oppps we aren't gaying.we are jus urinating together.lols .DUN THINK DIRTY LA

hahas see super season cucumber.MINKAI FEMALE!! ahahahsDUn Fuck si wo k? hahahs

see my class infront all so guai.Behind... hopeless. lols.JOKING cuz i'm sitting behind =)

erppp. NO COMMENTS my chinese teacher

eugene me and bobby.I'm suffering in the middle. This bus journey is the worst of my life.with hands all over me !! eeeeK

Bobby and me FLAUNTing our barces

BRACES AGAIN! and TOUNGUES

MAN rite? hahahs of cuz

Napkin eugene.Oh no i'm laughing at the screen again now.My parents must think i'm crazy..HAve u ever seen a feirce man with a napkin.

Eugene has many cameras shooting him.O are u injured eugene?ahahhas i like this angle , no that angle, NO the other angle.lolsangle photo, angle love . lols

that hurts ok no comment.Ever seen a man so man before?well look manly man .hahahs

My collection of eugene's photo.OH my god. ppl dun think i'm gay.CUz i keep show eugenes pic.But how could i not show the picture of the man-est man.opps hes not man now. hes shy.scared rite? lols i already put braces le la.You dont have to scared. YOu more man remember?

braces
opps no dating in class.

me at changing corner. lols.lamei took this pic for nothing. jus feel liko so take lor

its so hazy. even the MAN cant take it.
before and after.Caixin on jovyn (unseen)jovyn on caixin lols.they 2 like brother. lols always together.imseperable le (= hahahsmy bulliers.F si ta men!

Jovyn still refuses to let cai xin out . lols

they 2 patched. and reading mag.
opps wat section are they reading =Xso engrooseed.thats all for today folks tune in to my blog another time bYE bYe

2006-10-17T00:22:00.000-07:00

i wanna apologise to her again.
yesterday a friend of mine took my phone then anyhow msg.
sigh... sorry.
lols.

okok shall post another time
bye bye

2006-10-15T01:27:00.000-07:00

Sorry people,
Haven't been posting for the past few days as i was very busy.
And perhaps with abit of laziness, it prevent me from ranting.
Well let me start from friday.
I went out with eugene,tawei,junhao,cedric,winston.
Went to a number of places.
Lastly was vivo city.
That day was now seen as a day of foolish acts.
I regreted. Sorry .
I dissapointed you guys. I'm sorry.
I never do them agian!
Trust me.
okok About saturday, didnt really do much.
Went for tution at uncle house lor.
Learn the Amaths relative velocity.
Hmm can say understand abit already ba.
So thats all for that day. Oh ya ... that day walk home from kovan...
For some reason.lols.
sian.

Ookokk now about ytd (sunday) since its after 12am, current tune :0122.
Went for tution.
Meet gibson for lunch.
Meet eugene play bball.
Than alot of ppl came.
Saw mathew they all too. they also went SN2 play.
Kangwei and friends came down today.
Played bball today till very tired.
Deprove alot, its been 1week since i touch bball.
kw, gave me some pointers just now. hope can improve bball!!!
and studies are equally important.
Found a new study mate. NAT! hahas...
Hmm overall, tiring day.
my regrets... sigh.

2006-10-12T01:32:00.000-07:00

Hmm, well today isn't as good as yesterday.
but if minus-ing away that factor which made me happy ytd, today can be compared to ytd. lols

Well, i went to school today!
Wasted sia!
Actually the day i should go is tml not today!
Cuz ... i thot today got amaths with E2.
But tml go oso useless for some reasons... sian.
lols.

Okok about today.
School was boring.
I didnt attend any lesson i guess.
Slack around walk around .
(=
Tml the rest of the school have all their last papers i guess.
=) happy for them!
hahas.
I learn my lesson not to sit in between bobby and eugene during bus rides.
So .... torturing lols.
Tml shall post some pics. today too tired to upload.
hahas.
i guess i post again tomolo now quite tired its 1plus in the am.
Change new skin!
yea.

No bball fo a few days le... sigh. hahas

2006-10-11T09:58:00.000-07:00

A GREAT DAY!
After so long, at last such a great and happy day came.
Perfectly perfect(=
It all started with a GREAT MORNING which change the day!
A few words ! yeah!
Didnt attend chinese as usual .. lols.
Next was chem, we were walking around and around school. LOL!!!
Cool.
Recces than came and go!
Followed by english!
Ss wasnt as good, carmen tan gave me a dressing . F SI TA AR! hahas
Nvm shes not gonna spoil my GOOD MOOD!
good modd never will be spoilt that easyily.
Especially when its so rare!
Took some pics during school today.

Wah see Vannesa toking to her imaginery friend.
Todays english was cool and fun! spastic.
ALL THE IMAGINARY coming out.
Creativity sure runs in 4e5=D

This is another of my classmate- damien
See hes so cute. hahas posing as ULTRAMAN!
lols

This is Yi hui, shes so pretty aren't she.
Hahahs wat a position she is in!
shes horny hahas, lols
jkjk

Ooooo this is so funny!!!
TaWei was so innocent man!
Hes just too tired so hes gotta slp.
And people start vandalising his hand
wahhaha and he doesnt even notice!
people dun bully him hor! hahhas
hes gonna come up with a blog soon i guess?
Right tawei? eh heh ur DIRTY LITTLE SECRECT!
muhahahhas

This was a random pic alex took.
hahas jus post online lor.
I'm the author.
I'm no more no less, leseter! hahahs
Beside me is zombie, cum tawei.
Well his not that zombie after all, hes got a LIVELY side man.
hahas! cool tawei! you rocks hahahas .
rocker leh. lol

So where i went after school?
Firstly was pizza hut. with caixin and darren
Darren's acting cute again?
Congrats darren! You have manage to perserve thru ur exams haha!.
Oh ya, the 4 gangsters roam into pizza hut!
Dranks so much of my pepsi. uahahhahas
lame.
WAH LAME SIA!
I tried so hard...... but in the end...
hahahs eugene u owe me something! lols
You havent gave me my ring tone!
Next pic is THE BIG BIG ICEKACHANG. not the big after all hahahas.
Caixin table forever most dirty. Like the past in joo seng .
Muhahahas caixin - can't you just eat properly.
Than, he notice my side of the table so clean.
So purposely make dirty for me.!
I'm clean lor MUHAHHAHAS!

Yea tomolo's thurs!
Currently when mr goy is away, i go school on thurs which i normally dun.
I love going school on thurs now.
Not becuz mr goy is gone.
But becuz of... hahhas sheeessh dun tell u!
lols.
But after all it indirectly is affected by mr goy's absentism.
Thanks lols.

Yea hope everyday would be as happy!

gotta go sleep now!
good nite.

gd luck eugene. For tml! hahahas

no studying for today i guess, shall make it up tml or sat!
yea!
I'm happy

2006-10-10T00:35:00.000-07:00

So don't feel like going to school anymore.
Other school already have their study breaks.
Some are having them soon but not bowen.
We aren't having study breaks.
We aren't having prom night.
WTF!
what is this!!
Today manage to study the whole of maufacturing briefly.
Not bad le, at this rate i am going, i think i can slowly catch up!
YEAH!
Anyway i finished most of the tuition's homework even before half of the week is gone.
hahas 1st time.
Normally will be last minute or dun do.
lols
School was average today.
Add maths mock test was no prob.
Did it before too. lols.
Pe wasnt fun today, instead boring.
But at least don;t have to listen to any boring teachers preach.
After that was DnT, was quite high today. lols
Leow didn;t realised but its his last DnT lesson after all!
Ok let me think next thursday 19 oct.
Death note... okok enought of that movie i'm SURELY gona catch.
Back to main topic.
Next thursday will be my O level practical. Hope to score at least 25/30.
I wannas get an A1 for science and practical means ALOT!
Mrs sundram talk so much abt it this morning too.
I'm in the first shift.
I realised today that i aren;t having much time more left in bowen.
Things gonna change soon am i'm also gonna embark on a new and completely different life too.
I am excited and afraid. Happy yet sad.
Will i be able to take it all?
I;m afriad not! sigh.
After school today play bball awhile really only awhile.
Cuz dun wanna get tired so can study! really!
Next, took cab with caixin and jovyn went to amk to meet alex, bobby, dominic and eugene.
Well, alex so dao today keep suaning me lols.
Than today also keep kanna bullied by the 2 YOUNGER than me again.
hahas NO respect at all.
I shall F si ta men. hahas
Nip flip! lols
Caixin came up with his own set of "newtons law" .... nonsense fellow.
Bobby was so broke that he only could cut half of his hair! lols.
Dominic forever so man! lols
Jovyn forever bullying me too. WTF! today i jab him 1 time than he stop le. WAHAHAHAS.
Alex ar alex , hahas i bring laughter into his life. =D
RELAX man, don;t angry smilE!!
Oh eugene, hes gonna be a daddy soon? "tight or lose" ? lol
WAH lame SIA!
Dig lame prawn. lols
who created that? i only asking who don;t defame me. lols
In the end, a nice song seh hahas.
Oh today went to prata shop again. OMG its like i am always going there lols.
okok nothing else for today!

Hope tomolo will be another day full of joy and nonsense.
Jokes and LAME stuffs hahas.
Tomolo got ss .. sian.hahas
BYEBYE!

2006-10-09T21:46:00.000-07:00

October19 - death note movie!
I'm gonna catch it no matter what!
I love that comic so much! hahas
Hmmm, so whos gonna watch the show with me?
hahas i got one person in mind. but its impossible .lols
Okok let me talk abit about today.
Didn't go school. hahas , slacko me.
Went eugene's er... nono joyvn's house lols.
To study hor! not bad la got do some work at least.
Than eugene and bobby both so NOT relax though the keep saying the word relax.
HAHAHA!
They2 so like small kids not man at all!!!!
Hahas opps just joking(=
Are u ready kids?
I I captain.!
lols....
and bobby goes OOOOOOOHHHH...
lols
today no bball again. Gonna not engange too much or even better NONE!
Into bball. cuz later play than too tired to study.
okie thats all for today ba!

All the best people for your examinations!
The poly fellows, enjoy ur remaining sem breaks!
2 "j" form a heart shape . lols
ookok shall not make fun of him le lols

GTG!
Bye bye ....

dreaming again!
sigh, can i date you out?
CAN I!!!!?

2006-10-08T01:45:00.000-07:00

Its 0130 am!
I'm so tired but still i insist on posting before i sleep(=
.................................i was studying jus now okay! not slacking ( at least 2hrs?)

Sunday ,7th oct 2006 (btw its monday now hahas)
I woke up at 9+ and went for tuiton.
Did my homework, was so proud lols.
After tution went home took a nap and mum asked if i wana go vivo city.
At first i was reluctant but in the end i went.
Well, since VIVO CITY is the biggest shopping centre in singapore, it sure will be bigg.
However its kinda wasted i went with parents cant do anything much.
Shall go there with my friends soon! hopefully with her. (i'm dreaming , or maybe possible?)
The sky garden is cool.
At the top, i can see sentosa leh.
Oh ppl in case you dun know where it is, its at punggol's back lols - harbour front. Lols confusing.
So ya the scenery there is perfect. With great ambience.
Romantic place seh lols. Got amphitheatre there too.
Hmm, since its near the sea, of cuz you can feel the sea breeze. I love it.
Miss the beach(= ppl out there, call me out to the BEACH!!! i love beaches. lols ,water !!!!
Can see boats , cable car .... all sorts of things. Just love the sky garden.
ITs supper dupper big too!!!
Back to the interior.
as usual , shopping centre lor...
Got all sorts of brands (high class to budgets).
Theres giant too. Oh ya i noticed that i didnt see any macdonals.
lols.
The cinema there is G.V and its like so grand and COOL!.
SHall visit there soon ! yea !

okok thats all for today!
Bye bye.

-sense of lost and fear, i regreted and now i shall start studying.
after flipping thru other school's paper, i notice theres so much i have to REVISE!!!
OH MY GOD!!!
WAKE UP LESTER!! WAKE UP!!!!
ppl motivate me. especially the few which i hope would! lols
i have to study another
2books of E maths,
24chapter of A maths ( havent even learn relative velocity )
2thick books of science ( with so many chapters i'm unsure , mostly chem)
English notes ( lols , i do study english, ppl like me jus hav to. hahas i'm lousy in el )
Chinese notes ( i only got a B3 and i jus have to work harder)
DnT(hahas no comments)
Com.Humans(ss okok la geo, ALOT MORE!!!)
AND I HAVE LESS THAN ONE MONTH MORE!!! FCUK!!! I SHALL STOP SLACKING!
I'm stress
and afriad.
really....sigh
I shall put in my best and leave NO REGRETS!!!

Now than, i'm really sleepy
off i go....

2006-10-08T00:37:00.000-07:00

Fuck you .
You spoil my mood!
FUCK OFF JOEY TAN!!!
I would better off without any sibiling!
FUCK !!!
I HATED IT ALL
.
SPOIL MY FUCKING MOOD!
FUCK !!!!!!!!!!!!

2006-10-07T23:30:00.000-07:00

I'm high today!
(=
Today's bball performance sucks. Sorry!
sigh.
I will break free from just chatting with her online!
LOLs

2006-10-06T01:37:00.000-07:00

I shall first start by saying:
ppl who visits me, DO TAG

mooncake festival(=
Lanterns , mooncake , bbq pork , tea , that green colour fruit ,
cool. well, i have been eating so many heaty stuffs. DIE!
Scared fever.
I'm gonna study study study.
Learn from some friends, can concentrate so much into studying!
yeah. thats what i'm going to do.
Cast aside all my mood swings.
Stop compromising to friends.
Reducing slacking time.
Do serious work not entertaining ones.
!!!! I AM going to do it!
I CAN DO IT.
I MUST!

Today kanna put aeroplane agian. hahas but nvm.

Here, i wanna thank all who have been motivating me to study.
Especailly the few who repeatedly reminds me.
I don't have to name, you know who you are (=!
THANKS!!!!
REALLYY!
all the best to your exams too. or upcoming semester. lols

From today onwards i may neglect some of you.
Sorry if i did. I'm going into a hiatus to study.
However i shall keep posting (=
ANyway whos the vivian who has been tagging??
So soon and i have to leave bowen.
I really really will miss it!
Now than i know how much i love my school.
How much i love my classmates.
My schoolmates.
My friends.
Family.
ALL!!!!
I'm sure i have to leave. I will not retain!
Thus, gonna enjoy my last few weeks there.
Will try my best not to get unhappy!

ppl out there pls stop telling me to give up on her.
Stop introducing or pushing me to other gals.
thank you.
Let me handle my relationship stuffs myself.
If i need anyone's help i'll approach you.
(=

I strighten out my thoughts and learn something today.
True friends stay by you for their lives.
even if they can't be they with you physically , they will still be there in one way or another.
I don't have to compromise to them always.
(=
I love my friends!

2006-10-05T00:05:00.000-07:00

So much happened today.
From morning till night.
Unhappy and irritating.
Bored and vexed.
Tired. sigh.
hope tomolo would be better ....

bye. too tired to type anymore.
gdnight

2006-10-04T21:51:00.000-07:00

I don't wanna leave bowen.
I would miss it alot!
I don't want to!!!!!!

-my injuries. sigh.
leg pain!

2006-10-03T23:47:00.000-07:00

Today, as usual went to school.
Had amaths and pe.
It rained during pe so had a 1and a half hour reccess.
Afther which was add.maths again.
Followed by my hated subject DNT!.
Shouted at Mr leow again.
Hes so fucking irritating.
I know hes doing things for our good.
But i just don't like his style of doing and teaching.
After school had lunch with bobby and eugene at hg mall.
Thanks bobby, and eugene.
They were kind enough to accomapny me all the way back school.
Played bball in school.
Just for awhile. Anyway found out that student hub has a good studying enviornment.
When i reached home, its was about 5+.
Took a bathe and sleep all they way till almost 10.
Now, i'm so energetic.
Had dinner- bread and milk.
Cause by the time i woke up, all the food was gone. lols
Actually got crabs one leh. But i woke up too late. SHYT lols.
Well, now i shall go to study!
just try my best k?
lols.
bye.

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Feeling so weird and strange.
Its like something is missing.
A mixture of lost , despair and confused?
Perhaps even some fear?
O levels are coming in about a month's time but i have yet to study.
I really have no mood. Even till today.
Motivations are what i need.
But it ain't jus words which are motivating. Actions motivate more.

Nostalgic, yes that the word .
Can't i just put everything down and carryon with life.
Its simply impossible.
How could a friend become a stranger all of a sudden?
I tried to forget, tried to let myself out of it! ! !
Always have been thinking the times we enjoyed together.
Especailly all the times where there was really fun real fun.
SIGH!!!!
--------------------------------------

-she so far.
I guess i have to face the truth now.
Its impossible for me to be with her.
Shes with another man i guess.
Shes procceding with life without me .
Leaving me all alone.
I tried to give up.
I really can't take it anymore, i'm about to brust.
Especailly when things aren't just as simple.
Even if i wait, will there be that day she would accept me?
We are like from two differents world.
Yet, i believe its possible.
Cause i really have fallen for her, i really love her.
All i wish is just to be wtih her.
sigh.
I guess she won 't even read this unless i tell her to?
Or , sigh. i really don't know.
How? what should i do.

I'm having problems with some friends , having problems with relationship , and lastly studies.
My life is supposingly so simple yet i make it so complicated.
Now, its difficult to make it as simple as before.

2006-10-01T00:40:00.000-07:00

Well, today went on a shopping spree with Ben!
I bought clothes and wallet.
Actually still wanted to but alot alot alot of things one.
But i controled man! lols
New wallets and clothes ((=
After which,rush home to iron my newly bought shirt.
See my shirt nice rite??

I find the back view better. LOVE IT((=
DInner was also fun and delicious.
No bball today.
Abit unhappy =/
Well, today didn't meet any friends other than ben.
Like very weird. hahas
Nvm.
I am relying on my friends too much(=
hahas.
Today can say really rested.
Did not excersice
A break at last.!
today was just fun but like missing somethings.
Sigh.
When will there be a completely perfect day?
DUnnoe!!!
But today was really fun!!!!!
hahas
self-condridict.
Okok i'm tired.
Good night all!
Good night lester.

Ps: wish grannys happy happy forever(=
Congrats on their 50yrs marraige.
They are simply a model couple!

signing off now.....
bye bye
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Love all my friends ((=
My family(=
HER!!!
=D
And not forgeting. BASKET BALL!

2006-09-29T00:31:00.000-07:00

A daring move i made today.
I played with kangwei 1 on 1 .
What i have left to say is, i'm still a long way from him.
Score was .... watever. hahas - i didnt break the egg.
LOLs

Many unhappening occured today.
The issue i've escaping from,still resurfaced. Did not manage to put it behind me though i tried.
She was so near yet so far.
Wanted to cheer for her when shes on stage, but... i dared not.
I'm such a loser am i? Sigh.
quarrels happens again.
Moody me . Caused many unhappiness.
Bad results.
Lousy basketball skills.
All the criticisam.
That friend? hmmm still friend?
venting anger on innocents. Or are they that innocent.
Kanna pang seh... till so.. FFFF!!!
everyone PS me leh!
EVERYONE.
Sian..
Rough bball playing also.
WTF!!!
I'm such a loser.
When will these things change?

2006-09-28T23:41:00.000-07:00

Today's a bad ba d day i guess?
Didn't go school. Not because i didn't want to but i really am too tired.
So my mum found out about my results , she said she would ground me.
But! she didn't. I still went to play bball as usual.
Oh yea today the caixin and jovyn abit MAD!
Call me take cab go school pass them ball.
Well, of cuz i got go la (= hahas
what to do? Dun go later they angry
hahahas.
lame.
Lame Point!!!! hahas
Okok shall not tok cock anymore.
Ouch my back skin peel off.
Just now when blocking kangwei, fell.
Sigh. then also injured my wrist.
hmmm, train train train.
I hope i can have kangwei standard leh . hahahs
Impossible ma?
Next is about my studies.
I shall and i should and i must!
Do all my can for the last lap.

2006-09-27T19:48:00.000-07:00

From today morning , till now, realise i have been punching the wall, the table. all sorts of things i could.
Today seriously very unhappy.
Keep slping also.
I just don't know why?
Altought nothing much really happened.
SIGH!!!!!!
When at jovyn's hse today, really felt like playing basket ball.
Yet, once i reach the court, i became so moody.
Then.... nvm dun wanna say.
Everything is just not right today.
HATED it.
I know the next round of mood swings are coming.
F!

2006-09-26T00:15:00.000-07:00

Today was just another school day.
Nothing much happended.
Just that, nowadays when playing basketball, can't find the passion for it.
I used to love it so much, but now its like, a compulsary?
I dunnoe how to say.
The feeling is gone, last time playing basketball was .... GREAT!
Undescribale feeling . shiok!
Now, like.... i also dunnoe how to say.
perhaps due to the stress i have been taking to improve my bball?
I'm not sure.

I think i really need a break.
A real break.

2006-09-25T22:53:00.000-07:00

New braces colour (=
Yellow and extreme green .

A sleeping day for me - 25/9/06.
Slept for so longgggggg.
From mt period to physics . Abt 6 periods?
After school, had lunch with bobby eugene and jovyn.
Jovyn broke the treaty. hahas , not me man !
Lol.
While having lunch, saw gerald.
His so hardworking seh... called him to join us but he decline.
Reason was- study.
Hahas Speaking about that its time.
really for me to mug the shit out of me . Unleash my potential (=
Prelims were bad. But i'm sure i will not allow it to be brought over to O levels.
Lunch ended and i accompany go eugene. NOT he accompany me. LOL..
We went to Eunos...
I went there just to take a train to outrum which i could actually go to serangoon at first.
For we were having lunch at Sg North.- 147.
So eugene, thank me (= hahahhahas
After which, went for dental appointment .
New colour....
The moment i reach home, i was so tired again that i slept in the living room imediately after i reach home.
Sleepp sleeppp sleeppp ~~~~~~~~~~
All the way from 1830 to 2230.
Now, i'm so awake(=.
Today i didnt really play bball =(.
That all about today i guess.
I shall go take a bath now and START MUGGING!!!!!!!

BYe
=D

2006-09-24T11:14:00.000-07:00

Well, today is a great day. For once i really stop thinking about that person.
Perhaps after ... wish me luck for Os. I find that that should mark an end.
The prob was when ... was wishing me so, i was afk, when i'm back.... offline .
So this shall mark the stop of my depression.
You Jing has finally forgiven me for i kept calling her a ghost.
Hence another problem resolve.
thirdyly i know that i'm too sensative at times.
When ppl dun reply you on msn , it doesn't mean they don't want to . perhaps they are away or busy.
hahas.
Forthly, i strighten my thoughts and put her in equal weightage as my stuides.
Its alright for me to fantasise us together and have a little day dream - which i hope it not jus a dream.
After which i'm gonna snap out of it and really study!!!.
I don't want to think about studies while bballing.
And vice versa.
Fifthly, about Giving my friends attention. Wel, i was too silly in the past to think i have to contact them each day. It s like... i dunnoe stupid? Now , i have really strighten my thoughts.
A TRUE FRIENDS DOES NOT NEED TO BE WITH YOU ALWAYS!!!!!
Physicall closeness doesn't equal to the real closeness.
So i shall spent more time on studies than getting clsoe with friends.
I mean... well i guess you guys know what i meant.
Furthermore in the past i often worried what would happened if i leave bowen - which will be soon.
I'm always afraid that i would lose contacts with my friends. But now, i think if we really have to lose contact, than it just meant we aren't that close afterall. As in, we may not be the real friends?..
Hahas anyone understand what i'm talking.
However bobby and caixin ensured me that lossing contact will not be that possible.
So... thanks. lols
You people helped strighten my thoughts.
I WILL AND TRY MY BEST to stay in contact with all my friends.
Especially those closer few.
Next, i just wanna say today really was a THINKING day.
Thought alot.
About relationships, friendships, basketball, almost everything.
So ya thats about it.

OKOK let me talk about my day .
Had tuition as usual.
After which , went to sg mac to pass XinJun and Celina some stuffs.
Somehow i realised why i'm always so broke .
Its because whenever i'm with my closer friends i tend to have the mind set of get owed than owing them
Thus i tend to pay for them treating them and not allowing them to treat me.
Sorry if this irritates you but thats me.
Hahas anyway this only happens to a few of my friends.
Lols i also dunnoe why wanted to say this but jsut feel liek saying so say lor.
So random hahas.
OKOK after meeting them, went to meet bobby to go to compass point.
Really pitied darren for his picking were totally opposite.
Wah you almost win lots man. hahas
pity you .
OKok back to today.
After going compass played bball.
Today didn't really had performance.
Was moody at first cuz of bobby and darren.
They make a fool of me. But nvm its over.
Pls dun do that agian hahas.
Today the bball game just sucks la.
I dun like the way my teammates play so i SIAN!!!!
ya la thats about it lor.
DUe to my poor performance, i went home and torture myself by training hahas.
Gonna get fit k? jahas
SOOOOOO thats my day!!!
Bye bye my blog.

Oh ya lastly this saturday got dinner.
Its my grandparents GOLDEN marraige anivesary they call it.
I'm gonna ask my parents to buy new clothes for that dinner.
hahas bad hor me? dun care la.
Another thing, tml i have braces apointment. so happy.
Its another step closer to a perfect mouth? hahas
Lame
KK good night PEOPLESSSss
SWEET DREAM
DO miss me k? hahahahhahas

OVER ALL MY PROIRTY NOW IS STUDYING!!!!
sorry if i neglect anyone for now, its gonna be temporray till 20nov- my last paper.
(=

2006-09-23T23:40:00.000-07:00

I just wanna say, i'm very tired of all .
No matter how hard i try to make you stop ignoring me.
No matter how much i tried to say Hi.
You just wouldn't care.
In all i would say i tried my best.
Really i did.
Since its your wish to make things happened into such a way.
What else can i do? Nothing right?
All the best for your Os than.
If the day where you finally wish to re-regared me as your friend, do let me know.
I'll be looking forward to that day.
Serious.
Though at times i somehow get very frusfrated because of all this but after serious thinking,
so much that i have put in, its enough.
I myself also can't take it anymore.
Today onwards i'll stop all efforts - for it may make you feel irritated or making me more depressed.
Hoped to hear from you soon.
Bye.

Gyming , lunch , bball , haircut.
So many happenings . and now i'm off to supper. off for PRATA!!!!

I HOPED AND WISHED!!!!!!

2006-09-22T00:18:00.000-07:00

Today started off at 6plus.
Wok e up did my daily routine.
Next, went to junction to meet CaiXin.
Yet as usual, he's late. So lols.....
What else can i do other than waiting patiently.
After we met up, we walk to SN2 bball court to meet Jovyn.
Well my apologies, he always have to wait.
PS: 2 "j" from a heart. lols
okok shall stop it.
The treaty of me and jovyn. lols
Many happened in school today.
Sigh, don't wanna tok about it.
After school had lunch - papper meal leh. hahas
Than was followed by my crazy bball playing. lols
From 3pm to about 11pm.
With less than an hour of break?
Today in court was so moody.
If i had offended you, my apologies.
Well, that is all that happen today?

Hmm so theses are the pictures during lunch.
-CaiXin
-Darren
-Bobby
-Jovyn
-Me

This was a picture i took in class had nothing to do so just took it . lols

Sigh, somehow somewhat, i've been bringing my personal grudges to the court.
I should not be doing so though.
What the hell.
I was suppose to play bball to make myself feel better but, it didnt
Sigh sigh sigh.
Have been thinking.
Why did i fell for her?
Why is it her?
Why must it be her?
='(
I tried my best to forget about it. I wanted to gave up..
However, theres always something in my mine telling me "theres still hope".
Obviously there isn't.
But, perhaps i'm just foolish? just silly?
I don't know.

I so feel like telling all my problems.
Yet, those who i wanna tell i can't or they don't know her.
OR... sigh i dunnoe how to say.
I really hope to go to a place without a single soul.
There, i would definately dig out all my stuffs and allow myself to de-stress.
Till than? what can i do other than suffering alone? Sigh.
i really hoped to become the past me.
For ppl who know me long enough will know.
I was like so DKDC- dont know dont care of everything in the past.
Nothing would bother me and i would be happy everyday for no reason.
But that was like years ago.
Now, i can't really remember the day which i am totally happy without being botherd or distracted by anything.
I hate it all.
The changes in school
The changes in life
The thing which are all not in my favour.
The... the..... the...
so many to be said.

I just wanna end today's post by saying i really have fallen for her.
and secondly thanks all my friends who have been encouraging me in one way or another.
Oh and once again thanks caixin and jovyn .
You two made my morning less boring.
At least i don't have to go to school alone.
thank thanks and thanks.
sorry too for my attitude problem today.

2006-09-19T23:03:00.000-07:00

Well, today was a school holiday.
AND! the great thing was i get to wake up late.
Thats about 10plus ? hahas
So after i woke up, had breakfast at home cause no one could accompany me for. ='( sad
but nvm at least i get to save some$
After breakfast, studied with jovyn and bobby.
CaiXin came to join after his napp? hahas lazy him.
Next follow by the "hot" eugene. hahas he came and bobby had to go for his driving thingy.
Oh.. last but not least kimli came too lols
Study..........
All the way till about evening, i forgot the exact time.
Hmm, at least it was not a fruitless day. Studied quite abit.
But caixin and jovyn were like... only ABIT!!! hahas
Felt so bad. NExt time must motivate them more.
1 -streaming , 1 -have o levels next yr and a great aim to achieve.
LOLs
Play basketball at braddel heights for awhile.
Won la of cuz but.... hahas maybe bcuz i hang too power le. PPL anyhow call foul.
LOL
After that went home change and went to sn2 to train.
Well, learn quite abit today. Thanks to bobby eugene - the teachers?
Jovyn and CaiXin - the accompains?
lols
CaiXin had to go so left the few of us.
Alex came followed by dominic.
Sigh, we played match with some army ppl. They are simply big sized.
Some fit some strong some heavy? LOLSSSS..
They okok la but super rough.
Alex almost fought with them
Simply to say, they are noob.
Alex was not at fault. That i'm sure.
I was than injured at my knee.
That *&&%^$^^(*) anyhow bang ppl 1.
Super pain la.
Than ya Xiao Ming came leh. hahas
He asked if i'm alright. Perhaps he isint that bad after all.
AFter bball went to econ bought some daily needs than went home.
Hmm nothing much.... so thats my day.

Sigh.
I'm still bothered by the same thing.
Guess it has worsen.
How?
I dunnoe.
Anyway, things will go better (hope so).
Sigh

A tired day indeed

2006-09-10T23:45:00.000-07:00

School reopen at last.
Somehow, somewhat, this is my last term in bowen secondary.
There is this kinda feeling that is holding me back from graduating .
So weird.
I fear that after leaving bowen, many things would change.
Of cause, there would be changes but, what if i say i don't want them to change?

Now even bofore i have to leave school, i have lost so many .
what the fuck. what the hell.
I hate it all.
Are they together?
FUCK i dunnoe. i'm confused and frusfrated.
Injured my fucking back , my fucking finger and that fucking ankle .
ITs hurting again. ass hole chee bye.

Sometimes people often assume that "sorry" cures all but it doesn't.
It may seem that forgiveness has been granted but deep down. NO!
The judge sentences and never allowed for appeal.
WTF- you sentenced me to this world.
Like having to live to serve an everlasting imprisonment.
From the day i live till the day i die.
Does that meant, death would release me?

I suck at everything.
In another word a creature a pest, living to waste earth resources.
KIll me than.
Let the lighting struck me.
Let the ocean drown me.
Let the cars and vehicles bang me.
Let all the bad things happen all me.
ASS HOLE!!!!!!!!!!

If you think i'm not trustable, than i'm totally dissapointed in you.

I would rather be sentenced to death than life imprisonment.
My cries for a better tommorrow is never answerd.
FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2006-09-09T10:17:00.000-07:00

Sigh.Sigh.Sigh.Sigh.Sigh.Sigh.Sigh.Sigh.Sigh.Sigh.Sigh.Sigh.Sigh.Sigh.Sigh.Sigh.Sigh.Sigh
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Am i thinking too much?
So frusfarating.

2006-09-07T23:54:00.001-07:00

okays....
Let me think today started off with a "secret training" - wat Nat and Andre describe it as..
lols
After bballing, went to hg mall with CaiXin, Bobby, Kimli.....
Had long john silver for breakfast.
AFter that , went to rent a movie - glory road.
Its about bball .... quite nice
Watched it at kimli's hse.
Next play bball awhile more.
ShuCks... i lost to a china boy 1 on 1.
hahas maybe i too tired le. lols
anyway ya no excuses i lost. =(
sad///
After that, went home, rest awhile, go bball court see ppl play.
I too tired to play le.
Had Dinner with jovyn and bobby.
Well, i notice i have been going to sn2 quite alot lately.
After dinner, went back bball court see see.
Than go home.
Next came the problem...
Mr leow called and nag nag nag.
Talk to mum... sigh .....

It was like more than 6yrs where my family ( dad mum me bro sis )
went out together for a movie or whatever.
Other than chinese new year greeting.....
So ytd, we did manage to go for an outing at last.
AFter so longgggggggggg.
Most of the stuffs are paid by sis.
Shes rich lols
jkjk.
We had dinner at crystal jade restaurant.
Again forget about pics=(
The dinner was costly but issnt really nice...
Okok only lols...
wasted ...
After dinner was movie and cathy.
We watch little man. ya its ok lor.
NC16 sia... hahas
Oh ya , before the dinner and stuffs....
I was playing pool. it was so long since i go out with hx tawei eugene they all.
I play so cock....
lousy sia.
And ya nothing much la...
Ehh, forgot to mention morning go school hor.
and after school went queensway with gibson and frens....
He bought adicolour.
Its nice (=
hahas i recomand him de...
That cai xin say that he posing him sia lols
cuz cx got adicolour oso..
When i told him gibson bought it too he was like...
eh....... lester why u made him a poser?
LOLs
Nah just joking lols...

Overall, ytd was not bad...
Today was ok.
Tml? i dunnoe?

hope things would go for the better.
At least we exchanged a few words then...
It was like how many weeks since we tok...
Even when we walk past each other in school.
lols

2006-09-05T03:37:00.000-07:00

Its 0336am!
I'm so tired yet i made an effort to post.
Thats shows how much piority i gave to my blog. lols

SO ytd, since its after12 am...
Was quite a long day.
Today will also be one long long long day.

Simply to say, ytd watched the show - break up.
With :
caixin
bobby
alex
dominic
jun hao
you jing
kimli
.....
Seriously now very tired. Guess will post another time.lols

ALSO CAN! hahas

hope today could be as smooth as plan.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUMMY!!!!!!!!!!!
(=

2006-09-05T00:03:00.000-07:00

Sigh.
I'm tired.
Really .

Today, something was weird. someone was missing.
yet today was the first time we wave and said "hi".
Up and Downs...

2006-09-03T00:55:00.000-07:00

Its after 12 am ...
so yesterday,

woke up at 9 plus and went for tuition.
Mrs Micheal was like bias towards us.
Tution was boring, and luckily, it finshed fast.
It was like, we 3 were late again.
Came in at different time too.
So after tution, went back home.
Dalton followed me back to take his things.
Than i went to kimli hse to watch Snakes On a PLAne.
A super lame and boring show.
Played bball than.
Ya didnt really played cuz muscles super duper pain and tired.
2days ago, ....... hahas its gonna be a suprise.
Clue: i'm training something lols.
So very tired lor...also went home at 2plus 3 am.
Back to ytd, after bball , went for a walk.
A reall relaxing one. I'm feeling better now.
Thanks ya , my legs are so numb and tired but lucky they did not fail me.
After the ejoyable walk, had dinner with jun hao , alex , jovyn , eugene and bobby ....
My newly known friendly friends. lols
difficult to describe but they are fun . (=
NO stress with them
Or maybe less cuz got ALEX!!! lols...
I'm scared of him he so scary. HE only got 1 eye 2 nose... bla bla bla.. lols
After dinner, went to playground sit and slack till supper time.
Had supper with alex and jun hao.
today alex not that scary, maybe bcuz he found an eye? lols or he lost a nose.
WTH, i;m lame !
So prata fo supper.
I'm such a prata frantic.
So today once agian reach home after 12 am....
Its like my routine liao.

I guess i'll stop doing things agaisnt my will.
Let things jus go naturally.
Somehow, someone is weird today. lols.
ya just weird.
and hope wed could be a problem resolving day.
But will the subject appear? I'm not sure.
hope so? so problems could be solve. - at least there is chance?

Mum just bought a hp laptop.
The specs are good man.
lols
Guess its not gonna be my personal 1 =(
as she says she needs it at times.
But the remaining is mine. lols understand?
anyway, when i am out of secondary, i'm sure to get myself a super duper power latop. and maybe a desktop too.
I'm crazy lols.
My com spoil =( has been using mum's for the past few day
SO my msn like no pic. lols

Wah so late le tml 0630 still hav to meet ta wei...
KK guess hav to go slp.
Night ppl blog another time.

My burden has lighten. yet i'm thinking too much again.
Will i get depression? hahas no lols

TAG PPL!!!!!
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2006-09-02T00:17:00.000-07:00

My yesterday's yesterday,

It was my last in bowen secondary.
Guess it will also be my last time celebrating teacher's day in school.
I doubt there would be teacher's day celebration in poly or jc.
Sigh. so sad.
i wanna start my post 1st with a HAPPY BELATED TEACHER'S DAY!
Its past 12 am now. so ya, its 2 days ago.
It started badly though.
There was rain , heavy rain.
Well, it was long since it rain in the morning. so its something special?
Perhaps.....
The interclass basket ball was cancelled.
But i did not regret going to school as it was my last yr.
Those who did not go, too bad for them.
If i'm not wrong attendence for my class is less than 20.
Simply so pathetic. hahas
After school, went townth ta wei , ryan , alvin and anwar.
Played pool , arcade... nothing much really happened.
It ended at kovan, with dinner at KFC.
After that went to sg mac... met celestine and ying hui.
Celest had to go so me and ying hui went to look for cai xin...
So, ya since it was holiday, he could come out.
hahas, so miricale isn't it?
So we 3 walk around his neighbourhood ...
After the long and meaningless walk, went to prata shop for milo dinosaur.
Wanted to eat but, all 3 of us were BROKE.
Soon, it was late about 11plus ? not really sure.
Walk back with cai xin ... Than he call me send ying hui home.
Lols he say like that more gentle man. so watever lor, send send lor.
Ppl dun think too far . lols we are just friends..
So ya, reach her house , played swing for a while...
There was so many rabbits... so cute lols.
After that went home...
Reached home after 12am...
so tired . the day was fun but something was hindering me toenjoy it totally.
sigh.

My yesterday,
it started off when i woke up at 11pm plus.. lols.
Its been long since i had such a good night sleep.
Seriously have been deprived of sleep.
After i wake up, did not know where to go so ask jun hao to go study.
Was quite amazed when he agreed. As, it was the first time i ask him out.
He so on... lols - broken english.
Oh ya just now gibson called to tell me he saw ta wei....
he actaully called me to go ps but he was a few minutes late...
I have already have an appointment.
Well , actually i wanted to go. Yet after much consideration, i did not.
Sigh..... for some reasons. I have been doing things agaisnt my will.
It hapened again today, So ...frusfrated.
okok back to what happened today.
AFter studying at seragoon garden there -never really studied. hahas
went to play bball. well , quite fun .
NExt, go eat at that mac again ....
At about 10 plus, go backk bball court with youjing to play bball.
Just now attidue abit moody... or should be say very moody.
Than ya feel bad la attitude.
Hereby, sorry
Cai xin
Darren
Youjing
Esther
............
sigh , as i was thinking about........ again.
sigh...
After that bad mood go play bball with youjing.
Than later, called jun hao...
Jun hao came back sia.. so good.
It was like 11pm?97883685
And he came back.
So we shoot and tok crap and ya... slack
Soon jun hao got to go so left we two..
We played awhile more than went to playground to wait for esther.
After esther come, iwalk back alone..
Ya so thats how it ends tonight...

Just keep thinking about that prob...
sigh sigh sigh....

bball rawks(=
so vexed.

2006-09-01T00:17:00.000-07:00

2006-08-29T00:05:00.000-07:00

YEA !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I have just made a major decesion....
that is to Poly but not jc...
I was so stress for the pass few months cuz keep thinking to go to jc.
Than sigh so stress. But now. i have strighten my thoughts and will go to JC.
I now seriously so high like unlifting a mountain from my shoulders.
thogh the whoever problem haven't settle. But i kinda have to face it now.

Just like what people say, don't dwell on the past. BE optimistic. Look towards ur furute.
I will try my best to salvage the friendship.

Just now discuss with mum about my future.
She advice me to face the fact, even if i'm smart , lols , i'm lazy.
To go to JC is to struggle. Its better to go poly.
Furthermore, the Uni i wanna go to does not only look at acecedmic result.
They also look at personal portfolio.
Well , simply to say, jus help my parents sell a few cars or propety..
get some commision. = gd portfolio.
than ya lor ... can go U liao.. sound simple right?
I know that i'm those kinda ppl cannot study 1. so myself go help me parents with their work.
hahas instead of study study study...

My parents can do it, i can also do it. lols

OKok lets tok about what happened today. hahas

Well, as usual woke up go school lor.
Sat for english prelims... still having gastric problems..
AFter ta wei's persuations, i decided to go home..
Instead of loitering in school.
WEnt home slp lor..
than i notice...
Friends are important.
From next yr onward... many of us have to walk our on ways...
So sigh.. nvm dun tok abt it today.
But, conclusion, friends are most important to me
lols....

after that woke up.. study a bit of ss lor...
nothing much happened today.
hope tomolo ss come out merger... cuz that topic i really gt study lols
the only 1,.,,
hahahs

kk post another time cyaZ...

Hopes tml would be better...
say hi , say bye !

2006-08-28T23:26:00.000-07:00

today,
woke up and went to dad fetch me to hg pt since he was on his way on his way to hg polyclinice for checkup.
Had breakfast with limin and thought her science... lols
When entered school , noticecd that it was the first time in my sec school life that i entered school so late...
and it was legal..
So ya today practical prelims.
It was okay la ... manage to get G= 9.05 thought the right ans was 10... but can la.. lols Mrs tan say can...
Ya , i played cheat cuz i did it backwards... Thats call smart lols... Actually, as long as you know the theory,
practical is easy.. its just applying what you learn...
Chem was like the thing i was afraid actually cuz i never ever did a practical on it seriously...
ANd ya at least i get the crrect ans i guess - calcium iodide.
lucky sia...
so... this preactical make me feel chem easier than phy.. Initially i thought it was otherwise...
hoped i could score.. i need to score in science. i wanna go 1st three months jc..
SAJC! i'm crying out for you...
Tml will be my worse paper - english hope can get at least c5... aim is b3... lols impossible.
so final hope b4 lols
wish me luckk...

Sigh. everything is like so fated...
Kept seeing..... everywhere i go.
I was like keep avioding though i hope to appraoach.....
When walking to the basket ball court today... saw .... than i U turn lor...
than was like so stupid... wait untill... left than i go court... sigh sigh sigh.
why things are getting so compicated. i dun wan it this way.
I hope we could be friends....
sigh.. bcuz of this was very bad mood.
slept at dnt block for an hr pluss.. than play bball again.
I was like venting my anger on bball so play very rough i think...
hias hias hias...
blasting my mp3 playinng bballl...
wtf. i'm toruturing myself bcuz of....
is it worth it?

Wanted to save money today but sigh didnt manage to..
ate all my meals outside today... all ex ex 1 lor.. still dunnoe why go treat ppl...
siao ar me...
i'm so spendthrift.. i shall start to save pls...

ssigh... hope things could get better. and not worsen...

-ava room
-canteen
-bball court
-soccer feild.

You are everywhere... should i avoid you?
its so diificult.. can we resolve of problems soon. sigh

ignore me for all you want.. but I swear i dun wan this to happen.
I hoped that things would change for the better.
please? ='(
sigh

2006-08-28T12:19:00.000-07:00

well, today woke up and as usual, first thought was
"will that problem be resloved today? suddenly?"
perhaps. whoever will ask me out today and stop ignoring me?
sigh.
As usual, went for tution but since it was raining, daddy fetch me there.
well it was so long since my dad fetch me ... i mean lols dunnoe how to say.
perhaps i am not so close with dad.
Yea, today not late for tuiton.
hahas but didnt do homework as usual. lols
Ya, today hor andee never go tution so its like left only me and dalton.
Than everytime is either 2 of us go.... it has been so long since we 3 appeared together..
lols...
After tution, dal had abothe chem tuition and so had to go home alone.. sad sia.
on the way back fell aslepp.. almost miss the bus stop.. lols
So when i reach home, had lunch lor... wanted to save money...didnt eat outside.
After lunch wanted to take a nap but didn't.
Instead went online read blogs , chat... etc etc..
Than kanna prank by you jing and shang ling ...
not prank la.. is they abit siao haahs.
than cx called ask me go play bball.. so i went
met him at junction as usual... but today got hoon siang too..
and he was disgusting... dun wnana mention wat he did.
Ya so w walked to court..
than cx ... nvr dun wanna say.
but almost bang by car bcuz of him lols
than ya la got some probs but now ok le lols.
come to think agian the hoon siang really disgusting sia ...
After playing bball for awhile went to buy drink.
wah then the you jing and shan ling.. take by phone anyhow change wallpaper...
and change my profile..
at least they never read inbox... respect my privacy.. but they say only we knows its true not lols...
Than ya spent money on kinder breno and drinks....
so never save money lor.. hahas
OH YA!!!!1
I DUN LIKE KIMLI!!!! stop putting us together lor..
wah lao eh... jun hao lah started all the nonesne.
Today while playing bball was so fun ... hahas except the kimli part...
cuz they keep putting me with her..wtf lor..
aFTER that had my personal steam boat for dinner ... so shiok sia...
well.... nothing much lor today,. quite enjoyable...
except that problem still not resolved
it has been dragging / sigh